Biola Confession 6412: I am scared. This may be my last semester here at Biola because I couldnt keep my grades up for my scholarship. I cant face my parents with my failure here. I dont know what to do next if I drop out. Where will I go? Is it even possible to start over? How am I going to live? Hell Im no Steve Jobs or Wozniak, Im no genius. Im nowhere near qualified for whatever job I want to get or whatever future job opportunities I get. I wanted Biola to help me start on a professional career path in becoming a doctor or a lawyer, but instead I found myself soaked up in the arts, drawing and making music, and(gah) stuff that my family is personally against due to unsuccessful relatives in those fields. Not to mention that I personally think I suck at those types of things, artsy stuff. I think people look at my drawings and say its good for the sake of not criticizing my mediocre work. Ill look like the failure of the family; surely Ill be shunned for this and it will be a stigma that will be there for the rest of my life. Every minute Im plagued with theae thoughts, and it has caused me self-loathing, grief, anxiety, and frustration. Whittling away at my mental health.
Posted on: Wed, 19 Nov 2014 20:01:31 +0000
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