Bringing back my prior website. Ill post when its finally up within the next 24 hours or so. The reason being: A. I would like to be able to send people my entire album download links and I can only do that as Id prefer with my prior web host. B. Theres nowhere to run, no where to hide. People are linking to my prior website and its best if they arrive at the right website. I dont feel a connection to God, but for some reason I share about Yeshua (Jesus) with people, even today. I dont know why I share about Him when I feel like Hes no longer available for consultation and I just dont feel His presence anymore at all. With all due respect, please dont post that you are praying for me. Its uncomfortable to hear that and I dont know what someone is praying for and if they do pray - gosh - can it be for joy, peace, prosperity, etc. Not for God to break me, etc. so that I will draw closer to Him. Thats a terrible type of prayer and I would not pray that for others. Me, Im more of a do something about it person rather than a prayer person. Im not going to knock prayer. I just prefer not to hear about it. No, I dont read the Bible anymore. Its the same thing I read before and its depressing. I have my ethics in order and I dont want to be made to feel like I am a terrible person and all Ive done for the Kingdom is like filthy rags. Nowhere to run. Nowhere to hide. Im not going to a congregation or church. Every time I go, I get hurt. And if people know of me or recognize me at a congregation, they think they know me - but they dont know me. Gossip - assumptions - manipulation - control - guilt....I dont have time for this. I dont trust a lot of people and rightfully so. Im not better than anyone either. Its just that I was too public about my faith and stances in regards to various things. For the rest of my life or whatever is left of it, I will be known as Aviad Cohen - The Messianic Jewish Singer or 50 Shekel who became a Jew For Jesus (expletives to follow that sentence). Im not making another album. Those days are seriously over. Thank you to the people who are so nice, enjoy my music and are a blessing in various ways. I dont understand why people connect with my music, but I guess some do. I really dont get it at all. For now, aviadcohen.net will do, but Ill let you know when the comes back up again. Do not recommend a congregation in California to me. I wish them all the best. I fellowship with friends. Still, I really dont like to talk about God anymore with believers. Too much drama for the most part. I cant enjoy the world and what it has to offer (aka doing whatever you want to do without a conscience) and like other believers have to suffer although have eyes to see and ears to hear (if we like it or not) and in my case, even if I do not feel the presence of God (especially in Southern California - dark place - no I am not moving - Im stuck here and this is where my clients are - but I have not felt peace for the 9 months I have lived here...at all - not for even one day), I cant deny Him, although the only presence I feel is amongst His believers and their kindness. As for Him, even though I do honest business, am kind and encouraging as well as helpful to people, I feel like Im constantly on His ---- list. No words anyone can say can change that feeling. I do not feel the presence nor the love of the Lord (especially out in this very selfish state called California - although there are some nice people). If there are any Alpha Males who will respond here or talk about me, saying Im a joke and I need to suck it up, I say ---- you. Thats right, I said it. I might be rough around the edges, but thats because Ive been cut and have spiritual scars which do not heal. Much love to the normal people, Aviad
Posted on: Sun, 21 Sep 2014 22:00:01 +0000
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