Chapter 14 It was a beautiful early morning, a light twittering sound of birds makes it peaceful, the cool wind seems so gentle, quietly moving the leaves along with it...Early Morning orange rays from the sun through the window wake up Jalal with a smile on his face... It was most peaceful sleep after many days. Jodha was still sleeping calmly on Jalals shoulder... Her face was glowing in first ray of sun... She was holding him like his possession... her hands were on Jalals chest and holding tight on his top. While gazing at her Jalal thinking, why I cant takes my eyes off her??? She looks so pure and divine... her selfless nature and her purity makes her different from others... She knows that she has special space in my heart but never showed off to others... I can see deep love in her eyes for me, I can feel profound longing for me, but something is keeping her away from me... before I thought she wanted to some time, she wants to adjust to new culture, and build trust on each other, It is amusing to feel her trust on me didnt move a bit even after my horrible accuses, I clearly feels she deeply cares and loves me, then what is stopping her to admit it?... Jalal said to himself; I will never let you go... I cant wait for the day you completely accept me... your possessive grip on my kurta taking me to other world... I am feeling heavenly pleasure just being with you... Your one small smile arouses million flowers in my heart... I have never felt so fresh and energetic in the morning... Jodha...your presence around me gives me assurance of existence of my heart... It was difficult for him just look at her, he turned carefully lean towards her and kissed her gently on her forehead and move her head and hand on side. With his little movement she realized he is awake. She opened her slowly eyes and saw him staring at her sensually without a blink. With smile he whispered in her ears Good Morning... Jodha got uncomfortable with his passionate gaze ... Her dupatta was out of the place and was showing her cleavage and bare waist... ... sudden realization made conscious, she swiftly got up from bed to fix it... before she move further away from him, Jalal pulled her on bed next him and lean towards her... her head was resting on bed...and Jalal locked her with both hands... Jodhas face was glowed with smirk and blush... she couldnt lift her beautiful eye lashes up... his romantic gaze was making her blush heavily.. Shenshah; let me go... she said in soft whisper Jalal with smirk replied First you call me Jalal not Shenshah... Jodha irritably said Let me go Shenshah... I will let you go but first you call me Jalal... replied with his stubborn gaze... She looks at him and said I cant call you by your name. Last night was a mistake... As a Shenshah I am ordering you, when we are alone you call me by my name. When we are alone, you are my husband not Shenshah. Okay than as a husband I am telling you call me by name. She looked at him with little anger and said Jalal, please let me go. He smirk at her and said I can let you go but first you have to... before he finish sentence she got success in releasing her hand from him and moved away from there. Jalal is still relaxing on bed and watching her fixing her hair. Jodha with casual conversation said Shenshah, I am very happy today Its Holi...Holi is one of my favorite festival. Every year we have so much fun. We dont celebrate this festival in Agra. I know very little about holi. Jodha with informative tone replied Shenshah, Holi is hindu religious festival, Its festival of colors and love. Hindus believe it is a time of enjoying springs bright colors and saying farewell to winter. Children and youth spray colored Gulal at each other, laugh and celebrate, while elders tend to smear gulal on each others face. Holi is a big celebration in Amer. We have invited many Rajvashi Raja and my very good friend are also coming this Holi... she took a brief break and continued in very exciting tone Every year in a Holi, we used to play all day together and in night dance and dhol... I miss those days... We use to have so much fun... run out of palace... going to lake...horse riding... Since, I am married now I am stuck in palace with all restriction. Jalal listened to her innocent talk and said Jodha, you are so innocent, you still have heart of child and enjoy everything with so much fun...I have never enjoyed my childhood like this... I remember very few things in my childhood. Only part I remember is me and Rukaiya having so much fun together but we both had so many restrictions. We got married in so early age and my father died in early age, I had so many responsibilities... Jalal with curiosity asked Tell me about your friends, Are they coming for holi? Jodha excitedly replied Yes... all of them are coming... Prince Surya Vadan from Jaipur and His sister Lilavati, and Price Dharam from kanakpur and his sister kanika are coming for Holi celebration. Surya and Dharam both are the best friends of Surajmal bhaisa. Me and Surya are best friends from childhood. We always played in teams, Me, Surya and Bhaisa always stayed in one team. Lilavati is my best friend too; we have shared every small secret of our life. She just got married; I cant wait them to come... You will really enjoy their company but everyone will miss Sujamal bhaisa. So every Holi you all get together? Jalal asked Yes! Actually almost every festival, they all come here in Ghangor and Holi and stay here for about a week. We also visit their states to celebrate few festivals... In Jaipur they have huge grand fair for once year. Every year we visit Jaipur that time and also sometime we all meet at the time of wedding and other functions. Jalal with little jealousy look at Jodha and asked So do you know them from your childhood? Jodha casually replied Yes! Jalal baffled tone asked Did they come for our wedding? Jodha sadly replied No!!! No one attended to my wedding and dont need to explain why! All Rajvanshi were against our wedding including Surya. He came before wedding to see me and He tried to convince me very hard not to get married to you. Even he was ready to talk to my father. But for me, Amer is everything so agreed for marriage. Jalal sarcastically said Oh!!! So Surya has tried his best to keep us apart... Jodha concernedly replied; He is my very good friend; His intentions were towards my well wish. Jalal didnt know how to react to this, but Surya has created unknown jealousy in his heart...Wicked tone he Said Wow! I am very much interested to meet your best friend who really truly advises you for your better life. Jodha realized Jalal is getting little annoyed and envious...So she decided to tease him more... Yes Shenshah! Indeed he is a very nice person, any girl would be happy to be with him. He is very charming and caring... He is very brave and very good in sword fight, every time we meet, we practice sword together. Do you know at the time of last Ghangor when I got engage with Raja Suryabhan that time, my parents received proposal from Surya, but unfortunately that time my engagement was fixed. He his proposal came little late and you know, Lila always wanted me to get married to her brother Surya... She used to tease us all the time, she always thought that I love Surya but I dont blame her we were so close with each other... We were together all the time and the way Surya cares for me, she always suspected but for me he is always my best friend and advisor... Jalal with little anger and fire in heart with annoying tone said Oh! So your best friend wanted to marry you... Jodha with defending tone replied Why? What is wrong in that? You also married with your best friend!!! His anger boiled up with jealousy, tetchily he asked Did you wanted to marry him Jodha? Jodha looked at him from corner of her eyes and smirked seeing his annoyed face, She enjoyed seeing his anger and possessiveness about her... She replied calmly I dont see any reason! Why not? He knew me very well...he respected me... he cared about me... He is hot good looking handsome prince... and would be king... he is also from royal family and my best friends brother and most important he always trusted and supported me in my every decision. Hearing her answer his entire body was burned in fire, he shouted Enough Jodha, I got it, he is perfect, and he is the best... Can I go and get dressed for the big celebration Holi??? Jodha coldly smirked and acted very normal as if nothing happened; Oh Sure!!! Jalal angrily got up and walk towards door... She yelled Wait Shenshah, Jalal asked her irritably What? To tease him more she asked Shenshah, can you help me pick dress for today...? I want to look my best today. Jalal frustratingly replied Jodha begum your best friend is coming today, why dont you ask him to help you? I am getting late... Jodha with little smirk on her face asked Why you sound so grumpy? Are you jealous of Surya? Jalal realized his behavior showed his jealousy. Suddenly he changed his tone and replied with normal tone Why would I be Jealous of anyone, I have everything I want... Seeing his annoyed face she just grin and said Shenshah, I have got something for you...Jalal with upset look asked What? She gave georgous rajvanish outfit to Jalal... (Something similar to Prithvis outfit) All over white with red border silk Sherwani Kurta and silk Dhoti with long pearls necklace and said Shenshah, Its a Holi today and I will be very happy if you wear this outfit. Jalal looked the dress and asked Why do you want me to dress like Rajvanshi? Jodha dryly replied Its just a gift from me. When we met first time, you were in Rajvanshi outfit and I wanted to see u again in Rajvashi outfit...and its you choice if you dont want to wear it. She looked at him with little disappointment. Jalal took outfit from her walk out from there. Jodha took shower and quickly finish daily prayer, She just came out of the bath... her hair is still wet...She picked entire white outfit with red border all over to match with Jalals outfit, She put all the jewelry made out of beautiful white and red flowers. Jalal also got ready and finished his daily routine; he did Namaj and his prayer, met with Abdul to make sure, if everything is safe and secured. After that he went back to Jodhas room in Rajvanshi outfit... Jodha notice him in outfit but didnt comment anything to annoy him... Jalal expected some reaction or comments from her seeing him in Rajvanshi dress... Jodha was still getting ready...her long shiny curly hair was still little wet...She looked divine and beautiful in white outfit with flowers jewelry ... Jalal never imagined her in flower jewelry... simply beautiful. Jodha finally couldnt hold herself and gave him compliment casually while looking at the mirror she said Shenshah; do you remember when we met for the first time? You wore Rajvanshi outfit, I was completely awestruck seeing your look, you looked so royal and appealing... your bravery, your confidence, your magnetic personality ...my heart stop breathing for a while...When you looked in my eyes, said you will come back...I knew you will come... I dont know why but, I felt I know you forever... Jalals anger disappeared with her compliments... While gazing at her asked her sarcastically Do you still feel you know me...? She knew what he wanted to hear, she quietly looked at him, deep pin dropped silence for a minute...to change topic... Jodha asked How am I looking with curiosity... Jalal scanned her from top to bottom and confusingly said Something is missing, he walked near mirror and stand behind her then took a pinch sindoor from the sindoor box and filled her maang with love... then with contently smile said Now you look complete... Jodha acceptably gazed at him... both are standing and looking at each other without a blink... She bends down with teary eyes and touched his feet to take blessing from him... Jalal with surprised expression put his hand on her head and gave her blessing and hold her from her shoulder... Jodha got up mixed expression... blush on her face, moist shy eyes and with low tone she said Its holi today so...its a custom wife take blessing from her husband. Her shy smile made him crazy and the way she took blessing and gave him so much respect he felt overwhelmed. He softly kissed on her forehead and she couldnt lift her eyes to see his face... Jalal pulled her slightly towards him with whisper he said Why just blessing? I can give you much more my dear begum, he encircled his hand on her waist... Jodha shyly said Shenshah, let me go, door is open... Do you want me close it? he asked teasingly Jodha looked at him with little anger Shenshah, please let me go!!! Jalal walk towards door while gazing at her passionately and close door...Jalal with mischievous look walking towards Jodha... seeing his intension she shyly walked backward... he catches her wrist and pulled her towards him... Jodha softly asked Why you have closed the door Shenshah...? What are your intensions...? Jalal grabbed her from her waist and smirk at her and asked You really want to know my intension Jodha begum... Jodha realize she asked wrong question... She lowered her eyes... Jalal sensually gaze at her and replied Jodha, I have closed door because you have made me so crazy for you, this beautiful colorful flowers with white dress, you have mesmerized me... Every day you look more and more beautiful... day and night I am just thinking about you... My patience is betraying me... I am loosing myself day by day...How can I let you go... Jodha heavily blushed hearing her praise and tenderly asked So, What do you want? He drew her more closely and whisper in her ears I want you then sensually kissed her on soft pink rosy lips very gently. She closed her eyes and responded back to his kiss. Jalal stopped and looked at her with intense seductive look then put her hair behind her ears, ran his finger on her face and stopped at lips...then cupped her face and kissed her again but this time with passion...He squeezed her cheeks and kissed on her lips with soft smooch, then he nibble her lips, his desire increase passionately... he wildly started to kiss her all over her face...grab her hair wildly move her face up to kiss on her neck... Jalals wild passionate touch gave her pleasure. She whispers softly Ohhh Jalal...ahhh... please controls yourself; I am losing my control...please let me go... Jodha, Dont control... you are only mine, I will not let you go today... and he tugged his hands in her wet hair and kissed her wildly on her earlobes ... Jalal, Dont seduce me...dont touch me... please let me go... she said in whiper Jalal with sensually with deep desire replied I wont...Jodha Jodha responded back with anger and wildly bite on his lips that made Jalal angry...he madly started to kiss with smooch on her soft lips and bite her on ears lobs then on her neck...his hands started to play around all over her figure...They were so close...there was no breathing space between them...Jodhas desire was increasing by every second... and losing her control... and her open wet hair and fragrance of jasmine flowers made fanatical... Their craving and thirst was growing, Jalal took off her dupatta from her shoulder and pull down her blouse a little and smooched on her shoulder softly but sensually. Her low cut deep neck blouse was showing her cleavage beautifully... Jalal eyes drooled over it... which created extreme yearning... He moved little more down and kissed her with bite on collarbone and with this intense touch, Jodha hissed in pain ahhh... she blushed and felt shy, she tried running away from him but Jalal was holding her dupatta ...it stretched and came out of the final grip of her dress... She turned her back and covered herself with her shoulder... Jalal walked towards her and hugged her from back and locked her entire body with his broad arms strongly and kissed her on her cheeks with love then moved her long soft hair towards front and he had never seen this beautiful curvy shape, spot less, soft and smooth skin... he started to kiss her softly slowly on her back...his wet kiss on her back gave deep shiver in her entire body, his touch and sensual kisses send millions of sparks in her body... it was impossible for her to stay apart from him...she turned towards Jalal and hugged him tight... he hugged back with same passion then caressed her on her cheeks...with deep intense smooch kissed on her neck then slowly moved down a little and sensually smooched her on teasing pick points... Jalal in whispering tone asked Do you like my touch...? Jodha was at that point...she wanted more... she wanted everything...her desire was at the mountain...Jodha in response hugged him tight and started to kissing him wildly... her passion was so strong, her every kiss was living marks on his neck, cheeks and lips ... without wasting time, quickly Jalal took off his top kurta ...for Jodha, it was like a magnet...his muscular tough body...his warm touch of his skin.. She forgot all her shyness...their body collides with passion...she wanted to enjoy every second of their passionate hug... Jalal was still had his control but with strong craving... Jalal was surprised with her wild passion and enjoying longing for him... He murmur in her ears Jodha do you love me? Are you ready to go further...? Jalal knew with his experience, there is no way she will stop at this point... he didnt wanted to go further unless she admit her love for him... he knew that was important for her but she had no interest in listening to him...She kissed him on his open chest and hugging him so madly...his muscular strong broad shoulder made her crazy... she wanted to melt in his arms forever... She lost in magical warmth of his body...first touch of his sensual skin send flash on her entire body, Jalal could sense her eagerness and curiosity to explore further... he carried her to the bed and she immediately lay down and pulled him towards him, Jalal was on top of her...gazing at her beautiful passionate seductive eyes... J alal could sense her desire for wanting more... he asked her again Jodha, Do you love me? Are you ready to go further...this time he didnt whisper...he was loud and clear that he wanted this answer? But he was very sure she will not deny... he saw her desire was at extreme pick... With strong voice of Jalal, wake up Jodha from her most beautiful dream and realized she completely lost in his arms, Jalal was on top of her...he kissed her again on her cheeks softly with love and asked her Jodha, do you love me? She knew that they went too far again and if she stops him now, it is going to be disappointing for Jalal. Jalal could tell her stormy eyes were widen in shock, her expression completely change...he could read her denial thoughts before she replied. He really seduced her to extreme... but she was out of this spell. Jodha finally respond sadly Is it really important to answer these questions? You are my husband and you have a right on me. Jalal asked her again with resentment Jodha, please tell me you love me and you want to go further. Deep silence...only sound on panting... he knew something was there, which was stopping her. Jalal disappointedly got up from the bed and bitterly said Jodha begum, Sorry, I will make sure I dont cross my limit now on...until you are ready. I will not touch you till you accept me completely... Jodha could feel his controlled anger towards her. They both got up and dressed quickly. Jalal walked by window and thinking hurtfully, why does Jodha always stops herself...? I see in her eyes lots of love for me but I cant understand her. Knock on the door. Jodha opens door... Sukanya walks in to the room and cheerfully said good morning to both of them and said in upsetting tone Oh Jiji you not ready yet... everyone is waiting for you...then innocently asked What happen to your flower jewelry... its all broken... Jodha and Jalal looked at each other with mixed expression of shy and angry... Sukanya realized she asked wrong question... swiftly changing topic she said Jiji; Masa is waiting for you and seems like you forgot we have to go to temple. Jodha sarcastically requested to Sukanay Can you give a company to your Jijasa...day and night he is only thinking about Agra... so I can get ready quickly... Sukanya with smirk; my pleasure... Jalal gave furious angry glare and went out with Sukanya. Sukanya teasingly asked Jiju, how was your night... And chopat game... Jalal mockingly replied I wish played chopat with my Sali instead your Jiji Suku felt little shy Jiju apki aur Jodha Jiji ki Jodi bilkul sahi hai...aap dono se bato me hum him jit nahi sakte. They both reach to main hall where everyone is waiting for Jodha... Raja Bharmal with informative tone said Jamaisa, on every holi we all go to the Kali mata temple in the morning. Mainavati asked suku; where is Jodha? Masa Jiji is not ready yet... it will take little time. Mainavati worrily said Raja sahib, we need to leave now otherwise good time for pooja will be missed. Sukanya you come with Jodha later... Sukanaya with said face said but Masa... Jalal said I will bring Jodha to temple... You all continue... Raja Bharmal with smile replied Thanks you Jamaisa then they all left for temple. Jodha got ready and came out to main hall with pooja thal and saw Jalal only; she asked him Where everyone is? Jodha begum, they all went to the temple... Jodha sadly said Ohh.. what about me? How I will go? Dont worry Jodha begum; I will take you to the temple. No ! I dont want you to come to temple Jalal with confuse expression asked Why not? Jodha stubbornly replied I dont want to discuss about it... but you are not coming to Kali mata temple. With his sharp memory Jalal recalled conversation, how his soldier ruined Kali temple in Amer and took jewelry from their and Jodha fight with those soldiers. And that was the first time he heard about Jodha. Jalal with guilty tone said I know why you are saying no but what happened in the past was very sad, I understand now, I was wrong, I have disrespected your religion but that time, I never thought I was hurting hindu peoples feelings. I hated Rajvanshi and to take revenge my soldiers did this crime. Jodha with sorrow and guilt with tears in her eyes said Shenshah, I took a pledge in front of Mata that I will cut your head and bring to her feet for dishonoring her respect. And look at my destiny, I am so helpless, for the same person I am putting sindoor in my maang for his long life. Jalal looked at her with deep guilt Jodha; please take me to the temple. Without any word Jodha and Jalal reached to temple... Jalal with respect; took off his shoes, crown and sword, gave it to Abdul and went inside to the temple. Jodha got surprised with his action. They both were alone in the temple (due to safety, no one else was allowed in the temple when royal people are inside). Jodha did prayer and Aarti with melodious sound... After that Jalal went near the Matas Murti and apologies for his immorality and sin. He bow down for his mistake and promise that he will always respect all other religion and requested for forgiveness on behalf of Jodha for not keeping her promise... Priest was watching Jalals guilt and apology, he came to him and said you have pour your heart out to mata...you have put your ego on side and bow down to her... you have fulfilled Jodhas pledge, and gave his blessing to Jalal. Seeing this big change in Jalal, tears rolled down from Jodhas eyes. Jodha could feel change in Jalal... when they got married, he was arrogant and egoistic king... little by little his heart was opening toward humanity. They both got blessing from priest for long and happy marriage life. Jodha looked at Jalal with content look and without any communication Jalal knew how happy Jodha was feeling. After confession to devi mata Jalal also felt relived and happy. They both reach at the palace and Moti came running said while panting Surya and his sister Lilavati with her husband Raja Sangram singh is here and dharam and his sister should come here any time. Jodha got so happy with eagerness she asked Moti where are they? They all are in big hall with Raja Bharmal. Jodha excitedly started to walk fast towards palace. Jalal watched Jodhas keenness... Jodha almost ran and reached to the main hall and hugged Lilavati...Both of them wished each other for their wedding. Lila introduce to Sangram Singh, Jodha realized in excitement she forgot about Jalal; looked back Jalal was watching Jodha... Jodha called him Shenshan, can you please come inside, I would like to introduce to my best childhood friends. Jodha introduce to Jalal with Lila and Sangram then She introduced Surya...Jalal got pretty impressed with his look and personality, he indeed looked royal, and attractive. I have heard a lot about you Surya VadanJi... Jalal said in cynical tone Surya casually replied please call me Surya only... I also heard a lot about you... he added with sarcasm Shenshah, so finally you came to take Jodha back to Agra. Jalal got annoyed with his attitude... he replied with same tone Of course Surya! How can I leave her here alone...? Surya arrogantly replied Shenshah, you are mistaken, she is not alone here, she has many close friend and her family. I am sure, she is feeling more lonely in Agra than here then angrily he added What took you so long? Seeing his concerned and his possessiveness towards Jodha, Jalal got angrily replied Sounds like you are worried for your friend a lot. Surya looked at Jodha with deep care in his eyes then proudly replied Yes! I cant see tear in Jodhas eyes. Jalal felt like killing Surya for a second... Jodha realized between Jalal and Surya...temperature ran high. Before go any further wrong...Jodha came in between and said I think its time for lunch, lets eat then we have whole day to chat. Surya deeply gaze Jodha asked her softly Jodha, how are you doing? Jodha smiled and replied Much better after seeing you all. Jalal got little annoyed with her answer... while they were going towards lunch room, Dharma and Kanika entered the hall... Jodha greeted them and introduced to Jalal. Kanika looked at Jodha with jealousy and said bitterly You are lucky Jodha, to have a husband like Jalal who is not only extremely handsome, good looking but King of kings, Shenshah a Hindustan and you are a queen of hind...Congratulation... Her eyes were on drooling over Jalal and his strong personality... Jodha got annoyed the way she praised Jalal and the way she was drooling over him...she replied bitterly Yes Kanika, I am very much lucky to have husband like him who has 500 queens and 5000 concubine and can still marry again...with taunting she added You have a chance!!! Jodha never liked Kanika, they always clash... Jalal looked at Jodha with infuriated look... Jalal noticed while eating, Surya frequently gazing at Jodha and tried to interacting with her. His all attention was toward Jodha only... Jodha cheerfully said to all I am so glad you all came, we will have so much fun. Jodha and Jalal both noticed, Kanika was persistently staring at Jalal. Jodha got irritated with that... Jodha really annoyed Jalal since morning with many things... to take revenge from Jodha, Jalal started to flirt with Kanika. Jalal gave deep stare at Kanika and showed lot interest in her and asked Kanika, tell me do you like Holi... Kanika with her princessy attitude Oh no not at all ...I hate Holi... its so massy...? Jalal with smirk said to all I am also glad you all are here, we will have lot of fun... this is the first time I will celebrate Holi. Kanika with changing her color replied Oh sure Shenshah, you will have fun with us. Jodha started to get jealous with Kanika...and her attitude toward Jalal... irritably she said But just said you dont play Holi, its so massy. To tease Jodha; Jalal said But this time you will play holi with us right Kanika? Kanika excitedly replied Oh sure Shenshah, anything for you!!! Jodha gave annoy look at Jalal. Jalal smirk back at her... Finally their lunch finish... They all decided to rest for a while and get back together in hour. Jodha with casual tone said Shenshan, Why dont you take rest also? Jalal replied with smile I really had sound sleep yesterday after many weeks; I am not at all tired, I will finish some important work with Abdul then Jalal left. Everyone else left with Jalal other than Lilavati. Jodha and Lila were very close from beginning... they shared ever single secret of their life...Lila said Jodha Its been long time we have not talk... if you not tired we can go out for walk Lilavati and Jodha went outside to walk around and sit on a bench. This bench was located outside of the hall. Jalal was sitting on a sofa waiting for Abdul, he heard Jodhas voice from window...he saw Jodha and Liavati sitting outside talking to each other... he could hear their conversation clearly. Jodha cheerfully asked Lila, are you happy...? How is your hubby and his family? And I want to know every detail about your first night...? Jalal smirk hearing about first night... Lila excitedly replied... Oh Jodha, I am so desperate to tell you everything... I am so so happy... I cant explain in the words... I feel I am the luckiest person on the earth... he loves me a lot, he cares about me and my in-laws are also very loving and caring, I visit every Sunday to Jaipur, Jodha; do you know he loves me so much, he has promise me that he will never marry again. He treats me so special... before I desire something he knows... he can hear my unsaid words... Jodha I never knew to fall in love is this beautiful... you know when I requested him that I wanted to come here to see you, without any questions, he dropped his important work and agreed to come with me. Jodha contently replied Lila, I am so happy my dear friend found her love of her life... Lila but you are so nice and caring anyone will fall in love with you. Lila warily asked Jodha, how is your life. I know probably it is difficult for you to adjust in Agra but I saw in Shenshahs eyes, he does care about you. Jodha didnt know where to start from... sadly she replied Lila, I never imagined that my life will change this drastically... I wanted simple life like yours, I envy you so much... I am queen of Hindustan but do you know that... Jalal has three official wedded wife and more than 500 queens and so many concubines in his harem. Everything is so different in Agra... some time I feel like I am trapped in Jail... Womens has so many restrictions... No one knows about our culture... Jalal even didnt know meaning of AArti, Sindoor... Jodhas tears started to flood out... Jalal could hear her sobbing... I have not told anyone Lila... but we have not consumed our marriage yet... You know Lila; I love him so much that I have fear, if I accept him I will not be able to leave without him. He doesnt love me but I know he likes me a lot... He cares about me but still I dont know if he has trust on me. Lila... his one little touch makes me crazy... I want his love... I just want him to love me ... I will not be able to share him with so many women... I dont want to wait for him months see his one gaze... but that is my destiny... I have to share him among thousands of women, so I have decided that I will never let him come close to me. You know he is my first love and I know he will never love me the way I love him... He doesnt have heart to love... so I decided to keep my distance so, I never feel possessive. I know he has to fulfill his duty... but whenever I see him Rukaiya begum... I feel unbearable pain in my heart... I think he loves her and she is his best friend and khaas begum... You know no one likes me in his harem, some of them treat me like ordinary maid but I have learned to ignore everyone but I am proud of my sacrifice, at least Amer is safe, my family is happy but only one regret I will never be able to give myself to him... Jodha was so much in pain... this is first time she was able take out her fear and feeling to someone... Lila hugged her with tears in her eyes. They both were so much in sorrow couldnt say a single word. Jodha cried out loud... and Lila gave her warmth... Jalal got shocked... he didnt even imagine that what is in her heart and mind. He didnt know, she has a fear of losing him and that is why she keeping herself away ... Jalal felt her pain in his heart. While sobbing she continued Lila, I love him so much... that I cant imagine my single minute without him but he doesnt love me and he will never...I have a fear once I give myself completely he might not come to me again... what if I am just one night stand for him. Lila wiped her tears and said Jodha, dont think like that, I saw in his eyes care for you. He really likes you... Jodha said regretfully Lila, I know he likes me and he will give me everything but not his heart. He claims that he doesnt have heart. If I accept him then my expectation will increase... It will kill me if I have to wait for him days to come to me. In current situation, we dont have any expectation with each other. Jalal realized what Jodha wants, Jodha want his heart and love... At least he knew what stopping her. He realized how possessive she is about him... She cant share him with anyone... he didnt know how to react to this. -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Hello Friends: What do you think... How Jalal will react? Please comment and like my post... Next: Holi... Surya and Jalal fight and Jealousy
Posted on: Mon, 15 Sep 2014 18:32:39 +0000
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