Chapter seventy two Yho indlela bendisothuke ngayo khange ndim expecter lomntu ndimbona ngawam amehlo ukuba abelapha. Bendixingile ndingakwazi noku mover...ebemane ejonga phantsi...ebengakwazi ukundijonga emehlweni. Ibingu Nonceba bethu...ibephethe iibhegi zakhe ngezandla. Mama:Ndicela uvule. Ebethetha nge burglar door. I snapped out of my thoughts...took the keys...opened the burglar door and made way for her...Enkosi. Watsho engena. I had absolutely no words for her...I was tongue tied. I closed the burglar door locking it...Ukhona uTatakho? Ebethethela phantsi ke. Ndiye ndanqwala. Me:Use living room. Wanqwala. Mama:Ndicela undibizele yena. Ndiye ndaya eliving room. Zolani:Yintoni wakhupha amehlo ingathi ubone ighost. Watsho ndingena...bendibeke isandla esifubeni. Tata:Utheni Lele? Ibingubani lo usemnyango? Me:Uhmm Tata... Ndalungisa umqala wam...uuu...uuuNonceba ucela ukuthetha nawe. Tata:uNonceba? Watsho esothukile. Ndanqwala...Uphi? Me:Usemnyango...uthe mandimbizele wena. Tata:Oh. Watsho ephakama. Uye waphuma eliving room. Sajongana noZolani. Zolani:Shes back? Watsho ehlebeza. Ndanyusa amagxa am. Me:Looks like it. Zolani:Wena uziva njani ngalonto? Ndanyusa amagxa am. Honestly I didnt know how I felt about her coming back. But after what she said when I called her I was serious when I said Im done with her...Im sorry but its just hard for me to forgive...the things she said cut deep...very deep...her words left a unhealing wound. Ndiye ndahlala phantsi ecanko Zolani ndajonga emoyeni. Bebevakala ooTata bethetha kodwa bebengavakali ukuba bathini...You must remember what I said Riri. Me:Mh? Ndatsho ndiphuma kwingcinga zam ndamjonga. Zolani:Ndithi funeka ukhumbule into ebendiyithethile kuwe...about forgiving her. Me:Mmmm. Suddenly my Sunday afternoon was ruined. There goes another drama...tjooh! Zolani:Youre not doing it for her but for yourself Riri. Me:Ndicela ume torho Zolani. Wathula. Ebeyenza shushu naye ngoku intloko yam. Emvakwe xesha elide uTata uye wabuya...uNonceba wadlula esiya nee bhegi zakhe erumini enkulu. Sajongana noTata. Tata:Ugxothiwe uMamakho kokwabo Lele so ubuyile. Ndathula...Uhm...yho... Wahlala phantsi wazigquma ubuso ndimbona naye uxakiwe....wasusa izandla zakhe ebusweni bakhe wandijonga...Andazi mandithini Lele nyani mntanam...ndayazi ukuvise kabuhlungu uMamakho kodwa andikwazi ukumlahlela ngaphandle...usengumfazi wam. Ndathula...bendidlala ngezandla zam...Lele? Ndamjonga...Ngenditheni mntanam? Ndanyusa amagxa wam. Me:Yenza lento ikuvuyisayo Tata...yindlu yakho kakade le so andikwazi ukukulawula ngayo. Tata:Sukuthetha njalo Lele mntanam. Kukokwenu apha kaloku...kuyafuneka wonwabe ukhululeka...ube comfortable. Ndathula ndajonga etivini...Kodwa ndithethile naye Lele ndathi funeka ayeke uchuku...ndamxelela ukuba funeka axolise kuwe ngento azithethileyo kuwe okanye uzakuphinda ahambe. Me:Andifuni xolo lwakhe mna...makalugcine. Zolani:Hayi Azola. Wahlebeza. Me:Andilufuni nyani njena. Tata:Ufuna kuthini kengoku Lele mntanam? Me:Angahlala yena akhonto kodwa andifuni nto endidibanisa naye...she must continue to ignore me like I dont exist like she used to...nam ndizokwenza njalo... Zolani:Azola hayi. Me:Yintoni? Mos nguye othe uyandicaphukela andithi? Nguye othe akango Mamam...wathi mandiyofuna uMamam engcwabeni...wathi mandohlukane naye so kuyacaca shes done with me nam ke Im done with her. Bathula...Vana naye wena Tata I wont hate you for doing so...ngumfazi wakho kakade so ja akhonto. Tata:Ndizohlala njani nabantu abangavaniyo mna? Me:Kudala wahlala nathi singavani Tata so akhonto itsha apho. Tata:Kodwa Azosule bendifuna kubekho uxolo kulomzi...ndidikiwe mna ngumzi otense nyani. Ndathula. Uye wandijonga isidala waphakama...Ndicela uthetha naye nyana...andisayazi ukuba ndithini mna ngoku...mhlawumbi uyakumamela wena. Watsho ku Zolani...waphuma eliving room waya erumini enkulu. Wandijonga uZolani. Me:Ndicela ungandijongi ngelohlobo. Zolani:Oluphi uhlobo? I breathed...Azola kodwa mfazi wam you are being cruel now. Me:Cruel? Hehehe ndim ocruel ngoku? Zolani:Ewe andikwazi unjena mna. Me:Kanti Zolani nifuna ndithini? Zolani:Forgive her please. Me:Okay so wena you would forgive her if you were me? If she ignored your calls, akuxelele ukuba nyamezela kodwa uyayazi awonwabanga emtshatweni...then when you come back she gives you a cold shoulder...ignores you like you dont exist akudlule apasejini ingathi akakuboni naxa umbulisa angakubulisi. And even after she hears what your ex has done to you she still pushes you to be with him...she tells you she hates you...that you are no child of hers and that you must go to your dead mothers grave for mother love...would you forgive her? Heh? Khandixelele Zolani ukuba wena honestly ungamxolela? Uye wathula warhawuzelela intloko yakhe...Yabo? He exhaled. Zolani:Look Im not saying its going to be easy but please try for the sake of peace. Ndathula...Just see where shes coming from...uMamakho ebezenza ezinto ebezenza kuwe nezi ebezithetha kuwe ebezithethiswa ngumsindo...anger that has been building up for so many years. She found out she cant give your father children...imagine she pain she felt...another woman being able to give your husband what you cannot...that really hurts...aphinde athandwe kakhulu nalomntu nangaphezukwakho...yho ibuhlungu nyani lanto. Imagine if you were her Riri and you couldnt have children and I loved uhmmm lets say uKhanyisa more then you...how would you feel? When he mentioned Khanyisa...loving her more then me intliziyo yam iyeyahlabeka. Me:Thats not fair Zolani. Zolani:Andithi uryt ngokukhuphela umsindo wakhe kuwe kodwa ke you must understand where all that came from...she needed someone to lash out on...someone to blame...and unfortunately that person was you. I know for a fact that she didnt mean every word she said to you...akanokukhulisa iminyaka imingaka kanti uyakucaphukela. She was scared that you would reject her since you know your real mother so she rejected you first to save herself from the heartache. Ndathula...So ndakucela Riri wam zibeke ezinyaweni zakhe phambikokuba uthathe isigqibo sokuba awufuni nto ekudibanisa naye. Me:Kodwa undivise kabuhlungu kakhulu uNonceba Zolani. ZolaniNdayazi mkam. Wandisondeza kuye ndabeka intloko yam egxalabeni lakhe wandiphuza esibunzini. Me:So uthanda uKhanyisa ngaphezu kwam? Ndatsho esidaleni. Zolani:Hayi Riri ibingum zekelo. Me:Mmmm. Wahleka. It wasnt funny actually. Zolani:Heee ubucinga...heee uRiri unjani na? Akhomntu uzakuqala kunawe kaloku. Me:There better be not. Wahleka. Zolani:Youre the cherry on my cake mkam so subane worry. That was so sweet...ndiye ndanyusa intloko yam ndamjonga...wancuma...wandiphuza. Me:You say the most sweetest things yazi. Wancuma kakhulu. Zolani:Nyani? Ndanqwala...You have that effect on me. Wandiphuza...Thanda. Me:Thanda nam. Zolani:So youre going to try? Me:Intoni? Zolani:Haike Riri. Me:Oh uthetha ngalento ka Nonceba? Ewe wethu ndizozama ukumxolela. Zolani:Thats my girl. Me:Ja ja whatever. Wahleka. Zolani:Good. Me:Kodwa uba ukhe waphinda wabakrwada kum Im done with her for real. Zolani:Deal. Me:Sho ke. Zolani:Masambeni sibanike ixesha lokuba bathethe kakuhle. Me:Sizoyaphi? Zolani:Sizobona. Me:Okay ke. Anyway I needed air to breathe. Siye sabiza uTata samxelela sizohamba wavuma. Ndiye ndayotshintsha izihlangu zam ndanxiba ipumps...ndakhupha ijersy yam neka Imi ewardrophini sahambani. Siye sa decider ukuba siye ePlay Land elwandle. Safika pha kungecwele...sathenga amatikiti...sakhwelisa Imi amahashi abantwana...ebengencume umntanam bethuna...ndamfota nge fowni ka Zolani...wakhwela nojingi...the we all rode the tea cup together...we were screaming and laughing like maniacs...and that ride we took a whole lot of pics of the three of us. uZolani uye wandiforca ukuba ndikhwele enye into ibi fasti ingu bani...bendingesakhali maarn heee ndibabona ooZolani bendihleka. Ndohlika kulonto nditshintshe apha ebusweni...uImi ebephelile mntakabawo yintsini...mxm. uZolani uye wadlala igame wandi winela uteddy bear...ebengese cutie maarn yhuu. Sathenga izwitsi ne popcorns and we walked around eating...uImi ebemunca isitok switsi sakhe esemqolo ku Zolani. Ngoku sihambayo bendicinga izinto eziye zathethwa ngu Zolani pha endlini...ebenyanisile...phofu hes always right. It mustve been hard for her to raise a child that was the love of my fathers life...but even so I cant look past ob the things she has said and done noba ndiyazazi intsusa zazo they still cut deep. Kodwa ke kuzofuneka ndimxolele...yhoo hayi kunzima kulo life va? We decided to go home. Safika endlini uNonceba epheka. Sabulisa noZolani and surprisingly uye wabulisa naye...ebengawabalekisi amehlo engafuni nondijonga. Siye sajoiner uTata eliving room wabe uImi embalisela nge Play Land mntakabawo. Mna bendisenda ipics ezi besizifotile nge fowni ka Zolani kwi fowni yam nge Bluetooth. Bendimane ndincumela ezifoto sizifotileyo. Uye wangena uNonceba. Mama:Andazi noba nilambile na ndiniphakele? Ebejonge kum. Me:Ulambile baby? Ndatsho ku Zolani. Zolani:Ha.a ndiryt Ma enkosi. Me:Wena Imi yafuna ukutya mntanam? Imi:A.a andifuni kutya mna...hluthiii. Me:Hayi nam ndiryt enkosi. Siyityile into kula Play Land. Ndambona ukuba uphoxekile uNonceba...andazi noba ebecinga asikufuni ukutya kwakhe na. Uye wabuyela ekitshini waphakela yena nomyeni bakhe batya. Ndiye ndahlamba izitya ugqiba kwabo ukutya ndabuyela eliving room...sabukela itv sithule sonke. After a long time uNonceba uye wacela ivolume ye tivi ihliswe...wayihlisa uTata... Mama:Bendifuna ukuxolisa kuwe mkhweyana ngendlela ebendikuphethe ngayo. Ndayazi bendikwenza uziva ungamkelekanga kwelikhaya...ndiyaxolisa ngalonto. Andinothi ndiyayazi ukuba bendisenziswa yintoni lonto yokukuphatha kakubi kodwa ndiyavuya ukuba uAzosule ufumene indoda enjengawe. Ndiyabona ukuba uyamthanda nyani ude ugqithelise uthande noIminathi...intle lonto kakhulu. Ndicela uzungatshintshi...uhlale umthanda umkakho...umhloniphe...umaseke noba kuqubekani na. uZolani walungisa umqala wakhe. Zolani:Uhmm ndizokwenza njalo Ma. And asikho isidingo sokuba uxolise Ma...akhonto. Wancuma uNonceba. Wandijonga ndajonga etivini. Mama:Azo... Andamphendula...Azo mntanam ndicela undijonge...ndakucela sisi. Ndamjonga...amehlo akhe ebegcwele ziinyembezi...Oh Azo sisi andazi ukuba mandiqale ngaphi...andiyazi nyani... Ilizwi lakhe belingcangcazela...wathula...Ndikonile Azosule ndiyayazi lonto...ndikone ngendlela ezininzi. Ndizenzile izinto kuwe...nda...ndazithetha izinto kuwe...oh Azo... Ebefixiza...Kubuhlungu kum mntanam...kubuhlungu kakhulu... Waxisula iinyembezi zakhe...Uyalazi ibali mntanam andizulilanda kude. Uyayazi ukuba mna...ukuba mna andikwazi... Wathula...Andikwazi ukuba...ukuba... She breathed...Nabantwana and lonto indenza ndabanomona mntanam yandenza indzondo. Indlela endandibafuna ngayo abantwana kodwa uThixo wakhetha ukungandiniki bantwana...kodwa...kodwa ke ndiyalivuma icebo lakhe. Wathula. Mna bendithule ndidlala ngezandla zam...Ndixolele ngezinto endizithethe ngo...ngo Mamakho uCinga...ndandimzonda uMamakho kakhulu ndimbuza uThixo ukuba kutheni enika yena umntwana kodwa akandiniki mna...ndandi...ndandi...oh Nkosi yam. Uye wasothula isikhalo.....
Posted on: Sat, 13 Dec 2014 03:58:34 +0000
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