Christmas was a nightmare, I guess Ive already posted this. I know where April is, I HAVE SEEN HER, and I have been blessed by God with so much Grace and so many visions (you who do not have them dont understand what that means, but I have been evaluated by a world class psychiatrist from Columbia Presbyterian: I have no emotional or mental illness: Complex Post Traumatic Stress Disorder, bad enough). I WANT GOD TO EXPLAIN TO ME WHY HE ALLOWED MY ONLY CHILD, THE CHILD I BEGGED FOR, WAS ALLOWED TO COME INTO THE WORLD WITH ALL THESE PROBLEMS. I was basically infertile but I didnt know it. I had several issues, but I didnt know it. When her father (once he caught me he pulled away) was clearly not who I was led to believe he was, not the man I learned to love. I would drive in the middle of the night from Huntington, Long Island, to Montauk, and back again. And I would play the song imbedded here. I had never gotten pregnant in my entire life (and many, many times I did not use contraception). It was virtually impossible for me to get pregnant at age 39, but I didnt know it then. SO GOD INTERVENED. I just need to understand why my beautiful baby, my precious and precocious child who began to speak English at 8 months of age, who had so many gifts, who glowed and was so beautiful people stopped me just to look at her: WHY did He allow that soul to get lost in so complex a mental illness that the leading psychiatrist in the USA could not treat her. TELL ME WHY. Someone, PLEASE TELL ME WHY. I stopped her FOUR TIMES, elaborate suicide plans. I would have stood between her and that slug she put into her head. Can anyone TELL ME WHY. https://youtube/watch?v=7jC93d_xoEY
Posted on: Sun, 28 Dec 2014 00:20:06 +0000
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