Church, brothers and sisters, Ive spent a few nights in prayer, though a few nights is nowhere near enough. Ive made many mistakes, but according to the righteousness of Christ and His name, Ive asked God for certain things and to confirm certain things in my life. I already know that Hes doing wonderful things - conducive to ironing out many of my many wrinkles as well as bestowing blessings and things I couldnt think of until theyve already happened. Of course, Ive come nowhere near to where I should be or even near a place of honorable use, so to speak...but anyway, I have 2 new goals and 1 goal thats not really a goal but an arising and overwhelming desire, but not yet a vocation, in which I need prayer. Goal #1 - I hope to spend at least 4 hours a day, every day, no matter whats going on, in study of Gods Word. It will be systematic (as usual) and not just based on an English translation/Western thought sort of thing. As far as prayer, I want to spend a lot of time in prayer, but its not something I can put an exact time on. However, where God has me, theres no point in studying 4 hours without being in communion with the Author of the Book that Im studying. However, its also a startling fact that I wouldnt know how to seek God without first knowing from Scripture how I ought to or even knowing what sort of God this is that Im praying to without studying Him from Scripture. Prayer and study are very mutually inclusive...especially if Scripture is readily available. Goal #2 - I am going to somewhat start an outline and draft for a book. Ive had this desire for a while, though quite immature in my walk with Christ, I hope to consistently lean on His understanding in this. Writing a book, like preaching, is a very dangerous territory for the believer...especially the kind I intend to write. I intend to write a series of books dealing with an exhaustive study of the doctrines of salvation, atonement, justification, regeneration, sanctification, OT importance to the modern Christian, eschatology, and trinitarianism. Goal #3 - Though I can say the same for the others, this is the one in which Im struggling with. Believe it or not, but I actually want to attend Seminary. Of course, I still have to finish both an Associates and Bachelors...however, Im really into going for at least a Masters in Theology (which is just above M.Div I believe). To give you a better explanation, I honestly dont care to know much about Church history (at least an exhaustive study on it because some of it is quite interesting). However, I care about it just as much as I do the gap between Malachi and Matthew. I do however desire a more professional education on Scripture as far as doctrine and language. Now the only problem with this desire is when people pursue it, its usually for a goal (to become a pastor, preacher, missionary, professor, etc). I honestly dont know why Id want this other than learning in a college/university type setting, with fellow believers. Now, I have always told people that Ive always wanted to go into itinerant preaching. Again, I need much prayer. And I will be seeking guidance in this...so if you get a message on FB, dont freak out. :) Ive already looked into some notable seminaries that offer both M.Div and M.Th. (mostly reformed). Now, the first goal is really something that I want to dedicate myself to. However, writing books and going to seminary is really up to God, if He opens the doors, amen. If He closes the doors, amen. Where this country is headed economically and politically, who knows. In the long run, wherever God leads me in this life, I certainly must never forget my duty as a servant to the body of believers. Scripture says, I can have the ability to discern all mysteries and knowledge, faith to move mountains, the gift of prophecy, the ability to speak in the tongues of men and of angels, and even give my life...but if I dont have love, I am nothing. And a party of more than just me is intrinsic to being able to love. Anyway, please, please, please, pray for me. I am open to guidance and correction. This is just a FB post and not a full reflection of my desires or intentions.
Posted on: Mon, 11 Nov 2013 17:05:12 +0000