Coming back from an experience such as hajj is indescribable. Hajj world is so different from the lives we lead yet also a glimpse of what this life we lead could be like, should be like. During hajj, everyone is on their best behavior, trying to be the kindest, most patience, most loving, most giving and also wishing that upon and encouraging everyone around them to also behave that way as well. How beautiful is that? During this entire hajj experience, I didnt see any hate, I didnt see any anger. Whenever anyone was on the brink of a negative outburst, everyone would remind him/her, Labayk Allahuma Labayk or 7ij ya 7ajj and it worked, everyone was reminded, to keep their faith strong, to remember Allah, to breathe and stay positive and beautiful. Allah is beautiful and loves beauty. Imagine living 5 days, purely for God, for gratitude, for remembrance and knowing for a fact everyone, every single person around you, is doing the same. No other purpose than that, no matter where they are from or who they are back home, we are all united and equal. Its so surreal beyond words. It was so humbling and so enlightening. Its hard coming back to my bedroom, to my apartment, after living in a communal fashion with my hajj family, my hajj sisters. I missed my grandmother and its so good to have a clean bathroom and bedroom but the essence.. where will I find that? Ive been thinking a lot. I embrace that nothing has truly changed and only I have changed. I embrace that because I have changed, as a result, everything has changed. Experiences, can change us, if we immerse ourselves in them deeply. They move us. They stir everything upside down within us. We change. We transform. We see everything differently after. Nothing is the same after. Today I took a warm shower in a clean bathroom without rushing because one of the hajj sisters needs it after me. After, I got to pray on my beautifully weaved colorful floral prayer carpet, alone, with no distractions. I performed my morning rituals, slowly and calmly. It was different. I miss how beautifully chaotic it all was but I also appreciate all I have now. Alhamdilah. I sat down after and had some tea and zoned out at the way the steam danced around and disappeared into the air out of my mug. It was mesmerizing and relaxing. Wishing you all a wonderful day enjoying the little things and the family time. More hajj stories to come Inshallah. Much love.
Posted on: Tue, 07 Oct 2014 12:48:24 +0000
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