Coming off such a high in 2013, this year has been like a sucker punch to the gut, leaving me doubled over. Consumed with grief since January, I have had to fight daily to overcome depressions grip of immobilizing me. It wins a lot. There are many things I have been unable to do simply because I cannot bring myself to do them. If anyone has suffered depression- not just a sad feeling or a bad day, but real depression, you know that it is like a weight holding you down. I am a positive person by nature so the hardest part is that I cannot truly be free to be me with the depth of sadness that suffocates me. A dear friend reminded me yesterday that it will pass and I know that it will, but living through it, alone in suffering, that is the hardest part. I am still a mother, a professional and in the midst of ending a 5 year common law marriage including selling real estate and dividing assets and paying debts- things I cannot stop from being or happening. I have no choice but to summon the strength to carry on and keep on keeping on. I still love deeply; am passionate about social justice and protecting human rights and live to be free, have fun and appreciate the beauty of life. I will claw to get back to myself, because I see who I am, I know it in my soul and despite the struggles, I know that underneath the pain is infinite energy- the kind that will change lives. My own and others who share the journey with me.
Posted on: Thu, 03 Apr 2014 14:00:57 +0000
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