#Confession Hey! Good day sa tanan! I hope everyone is doing well sa UP. It’s been 2 years and I still thank UP for showing me amazing things. Friends, Education, Adventures—they’re the best. However, I’ll want to share about the amazing feeling I felt because of someone very special. We were very opposite sa course. I’m from Arts, she is from the Science department. Everything I wanted from a girl from physique, intellect, judgement, and pagkamaldita--kay naa niya. Mao lipay kaayu akong life sa UP. Well, it started as my campus crush. I began to know her more through Facebook and YM (I feel old). Until such time I decided to communicate and make friends with her personally. It took a while before I had the courage to tell her that I like her. May nalang ako jud na sulti. Then my journey on proving my feelings for her started. I told her I would court her and if she’s not interested in me, pwede rajud ko niya I Busted. Then nagpadayun ku og court. Friends from my side and her side supported until nibigay na siya. We were inlove but we didn’t commit in a serious relationship. Parehas mi ug aim nga mu graduate sa before mu sud ug serious relationship. I was serious bisag MU2 pami ato. I did my best to keep the spark. I bought her flowers, traveled with her to places (Sa Cebu ra kay di siya lagan), watched Edward Cullen in big screen, and ate a lot. We also had our misunderstandings; we knew our differences, reconciled. It was complicated that time. We had no label but we were happy. It was then that I realized I want her to be the love of my Life. We had our differences but nituo ko nga we could always work it out. Inlove kay ko niya oy. Bahala mauwaw kog holding hands or sweet2 in front of our friends. I know nga mao jud to among na feel for each other. The time came when ni graduate nami and we became official. Syempre, confident kaayu mi nga makaya ni namu. What is 4 years of foundation bahala di mi official. We had our jobs and I started to plan my future with her in my mind. I imagined meeting her parents, traveling with her, going to church with her (kay lahi mig religion), taking care of her sa ilang house if masakit siya, proposing to her and living a lifetime with her. And to do this, I have to work hard. Naabot ang time nga naa nami trabaho duha. Siyempre, we did our best to juggle work, our relationship, our friends, and our families. Pag una okay2 pato. Kay na juggle jud. Pero naabot ang time where dili nami mag abot sa amu time. Next, nahimo kong tao nga I pressure na siya para makigmeet nako every weekend kay wala ko naanad dili mi magkita kadaghan in week. Then a lot of problems came especially sa differences namu. A friend once told me that dili rajud na love ang mu attach sa duha ka tao sa usa ka relationship. And I did realize this after we broke up. I didn’t agree to this but since it is what she needed, I gave it to her. Sakit kaayu ui. Wala jud ko nag expect ani. I had a lot for us in mind but I think dili nalang jud nako ipalabaw ang pagkaselfish. It hurts everyday. Maka remember lang jud ko sa among moments while MU2 pami and sa 11 months nga nagkakami. A week after we broke up. We decided that we should stay as friends while demanding space for personal growth but wa jud nako nakaya. I cut off all of my contacts with her. Sa FB and phone. Bahala bitter paminawn pero I have my reasons. It’s the only way I can respect her request sa space. Kay everytime makakita ko nga nay green button sa kilid sa iyang name sa Facebook chat kay mangatol jud ko ug makachat niya sa ako kamaoy and how bad I want her back. And I know this will not help her. So, sa kataas ani nga post, I just want her to know that mao rajud ni ang way para ako ma hatag iya ganahan nga space ug maka move.on siya as what she always say to me. I also want her to know that Wala ko nagmahay nagkakami and daghan kaayu ko na learn from her. I loved her with all that I had that’s why naglisod jud ko. I’ll always remember nganu Gi love nako siya in the first place. So please, If ever nabasa ni nimo. Please be strong, take care of yourself always, do what you think is best to do now find yourself and when the time comes when you get tired, when you want someone to love again, I consider ko again bi :’). More than wiling pako mu start over again for us and by that time di najud tika buhi.an, promise. Pero of course, you’re also free to find someone else. Always remember Gi love jud tika maayu. Mao ni guys. I realized and guaranteed rajud sa life kay ang moment karun. Karun nga nag type ko and karun nga nagbasa mo ani. So do everything in your best para walay mahay. For me, I’ll just ride along the waves for now. Engage in self development and I hope jud magkabalik jud mi. Sorry sa taas nga post and thank you. I hope this reaches her. God bless sa upcoming start of Classes sa July! -Masscom
Posted on: Tue, 01 Jul 2014 10:08:16 +0000
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