Confession: I am feeling like a shiftless bum right about now, even though I am working harder than I have be able to work in about 20 years. But I am feeling like a shiftless bum because I have not PRODUCED (i.e. completed and published) a work in over a year now, though I have been working fervorously on about 5 projects and despite the fact that The Honorable Minister Louis Farrakhan has made me able to pursue my scholarship more freely than I EVER have been able to in the past, and bes believe Im taking FULL advantage of it. So whats the problem? Its this: Because of the near TOTAL takeover of Ghetto Scholarship, Hustle Scholarship, Microwave Scholarship (Ish) and just plan sub-par scholarship coming out of and DEFINING the Conscious cipher these days, I am hyper-sensitive to any flaws in my own works and uber cautious with all of my crossed Ts and dotted Is. This means that the product, once completed, will be thorough and top-notch (if I may say so myself), but it also means that the process is even MORE tedious (because even more meticulous) than in the past (because Im now not only DOUBLE checking but QUADRUPLE checking things) and more SLOW. Some days its seems like the end is nowhere in sight. And those in my small circle will tell you, I have had an attitude lately and been kinda anal, standoffish. Well Fam, its because I am feeling like a shiftless bum with no works!!!!! Thatll make a Black God moody! But I simply cannot allow my works to be confused with so much of the type of work that is being produced today. I literally cant stand it or stomach it, so I loath being confused with it. I was asked sometime ago about speaking engagements and I accidentally snapped at my Brother that, while all these people are lecturing who need to do much more studying and writing, Im falling back on lecturing and concentrating on writing. And I have. So, as Drake said, I just take my time with all this sh**, I still believe in that. However, everyday these projects go un-completed, I feel like a shiftless bum. Alright, back to Work.
Posted on: Wed, 10 Dec 2014 18:08:38 +0000
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