Constructive Act # 168 – “CHERISH EVERY MOMENT” - When you are loving an addict and living with an addict, cherish every moment that you have with them and every moment that you get to spend with them, because you never know which of those moments may be your last. As I sit here tonight writing for tomorrow morning, I can’t help but think that exactly 6 months ago tonight, I was waiting for my sweet Davis to come home from the Narcotics Anonymous meeting that I thought he had gone to. I was just watching a little television, sitting in my living room all by myself waiting for Davis so I could go to bed and get up for work the next morning. As time passed, my heart grew a little heavier by the minute. At the stroke of midnight, I had a pretty sick feeling in my stomach. I remember going up to bed around 1:30 waking my husband up to tell him that Davis wasn’t home and that I didn’t think he was ever coming home again. I remember laying down listening for the garage door to sound, telling me that he was home and that I could go to sleep. I remember dozing in and out, getting up to look out the window to check for his car. I remember getting up at 5:00 a.m. knowing that I would never see him again. I remember the false hope that everyone tried to give me telling me that he was ashamed and couldn’t come home because he was embarrassed, but I knew in my heart what the situation was. I remember calling into work saying that I was sick and wouldn’t be coming in for work. I remember feeling how very sick I was and knowing it was the worst sick I had ever felt in my entire life. I remember all these things and relive them more often than you will ever know. Time with an addict is NEVER guaranteed. I know that you could say that for anyone, but saying it for an addict has a different and more intense meaning. Addicts are ticking time bombs; you never know when they will go off and make a mistake that will end their life and life as you know it! They change the dynamics of your entire family and single handedly turn your gut inside out. They are as remorseful as anyone I have ever known, but turn around and do the same things the next day as if nothing had ever happened. Life with an addict is hard to explain to someone who has never lived it, but the thing about that is that more often that not, people know just exactly what you mean. That’s because we are experiencing an epidemic in our community, our state and in our nation. Monday night we listed the names of the sweet family members that had been lost to the disease in our community at our Lights of Hope ceremony. Name for name, there were almost as many as the kids we listed for Recovery. That’s a scary thought when you think about it because the statistic is startling when you read it. For every prescription drug death, there are 10 treatment admissions for abuse, 32 emergency room visits for misuse and abuse, 130 people who abuse or are dependent, and 825 non-medical users. (CDC) Do you understand what that means? It means that prescription drug /heroin abuse is still very much HUSH-HUSH! No one is talking about it because they are embarrassed! SPEAK-UP and SPEAK-OUT! This horrific epidemic will never end until it is brought out into the open and dealt with. WE have to help these precious children who are suffering silently because their families are too proud to ask for help. YES – I was one of those and I will live with that the rest of my life. Don’t make the same mistakes that I did, I have laid them out in front of you raw and unedited. There is no excuse for you making the same mistakes that I did. Let’s talk about it…..Let’s open the dialogue…..Let’s swallow our pride…..Before one more child FALLS victim to this awful DISEASE! Please pray for me today as I endure the 6 month anniversary of losing my precious Davis – my heart hurts and my soul is numb. cdc.gov/homeandrecreationalsafety/rxbrief/
Posted on: Thu, 04 Sep 2014 09:37:58 +0000
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