Cycle 6 Day 15: well those of you that have experienced this crazy Cancer world themselves or have followed my journey for a while will realise that your road that you think you are travelling down can make a detour at any point and today came with more decisions to make. I went to Exeter to meet a lovely nurse to give me a pre op assessment, which was straight forward. I then had an appointment with an breast care nurse (again very lovely) to talk through any queries etc about the op. It was here that she asked if we had received the letter from my surgeon, Sissi. No I said, why? Well, it turns out that they have looked again at my case and it is feasible for me to have an implant reconstruction at the same as my mastectomy. It can be a temporary implant if I still want the tummy reconstruction later on. The chances of me needing radiotherapy has changed from about 98% to 60%, which is still obviously high and could effect the implant but only in the long term. So if I still have the tummy one later in the year that wont matter. But do I want to put my body through 2 lots of big ish surgery and recovery. There is more but its too confusing and boring to go through it on here. Basically I have to decide if I want just a mastectomy and tummy reconstruction, temporary implant and tummy reconstruction or just the implant reconstruction and hopefully be happy enough with it but with the option of having the tummy one in years to come!! Does that even make sense? Lol I was expecting today to be really emotional and actually really proud of myself that I wasnt in the slightest. Just a little overwhelmed with info. I really had convinced myself that my original option (mastectomy & tummy) was the best decision. Still I know once I make my decision I will convince myself again its the right one and focus positively on it. The recovery for the tummy option is daunting (a min of 3 months) but because of my age it gives the most natural look. But if I go for the the implant it may not be as natural (still good, I think) but I would be finished with all big hurdles by Easter. Im sorry, I am thinking out loud! I had a nice day with Mr Walters to, I am soooooo glad he came with me as what we thought was going to be just a bit of info about the op and checking my mental state turned out to be a huge day in terms of the knife! Anyway on a completely different note, as of 11pm its supposed to be snowing all night where we live and I just realised we have very little bread! Lol I have been warned that when it snows in our village there is no way out. Ooooooo the excitement, 🎵🎶🎤 do you wanna build a snowman 🎤🎶🎵 sorry we watch far too much Frozen in our house. I have a lot to think about but I dont have to make mind up for a few days. One thing I can not wait for is relieving my wonderful mum from her school pick up duties. I am still getting tired, especially in the afternoons and probably not safe for me to drive. I hate having people doing things for me, I feel so guilty but I know it wont be for much longer, well I hope anyway. Nighty night and hope it snows for those that want snow and doesnt for those that dont. ❄️⛄️ Xxxxx
Posted on: Tue, 13 Jan 2015 21:19:59 +0000