DREAMER By: Noemi I have always been a dreamer, this is because I grew up with such a complicated life since my father passed away when I was still very young. My siblings and I lived with different relatives because my mother had to manage the small business left by my father. She was not successful though and before long, she decided to get married again against our will. That was the beginning of our distress as my siblings and I were parted because we were dependent on who among the relatives will support us in our education. Living with different relatives is no fun at all. I became responsible so early in life that I have no recollection of joy in childhood. I had to work before and after school in the house. My only solace is to escape in a world of fantasy. I began to dream that one day my life will change. After High School I had to find a real job to support myself in college. I found employment as a saleslady of a Hardware store and my employer then was a “born again” Christian. He was so strict and really meant business as he assigned tasks everyday. He also taught me by force how to pray, read the bible and It was a must that we attend Sunday service otherwise he will deduct a day’s pay from my salary. In fear of losing a job and a hard earned money I just obeyed. I dont really understand but one day in one of the church services, I surrendered my life to Jesus it was in July 19 1997! I was overwhelmed with joy and my perspective in life was changed! It won’t be long though that I will be back chasing my dream. Having saved enough money, I went to college where I met a guy who would soon be my husband. After graduation, we both went to work in Dubai and lived together for a while before we finally got married. I was ecstatic, I thought that I was already living the dream with him. Little did I know that this time in dreamland is about to become a nightmare. After two years of my contract I went back to the Philippines to give birth to my son. While I was in the Philippines my husband got involved with another woman and he caught up with me back home to ask for a divorce. I was devastated, depressed and hopeless. As if it was His fault I complained to God, “Why are you hurting me?” The Lord reminded me who I was before, I realized that I had a lot of mistakes and shortcomings, I left and forgot Him when my dream come true. And so I thought. With a heavy heart, I came to Hong Kong and found my way back to God. Starting over was not easy. I got involved in debt with many people and lending agencies because of wrong choice and friends. In desperation, I attempted to commit suicide three times but did not succeed, it must be because of the constant prayer of my family in Christ. It took time before I was bailed out but praise the Lord I was freed from the shackles of debt! However my inclination to trouble is not yet over. The Lord had to deal with my insecurity and loneliness. I met a man on the internet who seemed to be ideal but I always struggle with the Lord every time I pray. When the time came for us to meet, I felt that it was not the Lord’s will and so I had to decline. I praise and thank the Lord that it’s been seven years now that I was separated from my husband and I have not had a relationship with another man. It was the prophet Isaiah who spoke the word of the Lord when He said “For you maker is your husband”. Indeed, when all else forsake me, the Lord will take me as His own. He is the Lord my God, the fulfiller of my dreams! Noemi
Posted on: Tue, 28 Oct 2014 11:02:04 +0000
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