Dang, I really miss playing basketball games for huge home crowds and just enjoying that overwhelming feeling you get on gameday... Giving your classmates and family something to be proud of and giving the away crowd something to envy. Forgetting about everything else in that moment and giving everything you have on the hardwood- even more than you realized you had to give. Dripping sweat, holding back anger and keeping your character in check- playing with passion, not just heart. Making everyone know your name. Finding worth not so much in the win or loss, but finding who you really are in how hard you work. How willing you are to sacrifice your body and apply your efforts for the people around you and for yourself. Even when you hated every single practice like I did and it feels like it drags, that one day is worth it. Its worth all the torture and long nights of doing homework on top of it, even worth getting up on a Saturday. To wear your team gear with pride, to have that name across your chest, and that number on your back. Crap I really miss it, i avoid the basketball gym altogether now and rarely ever play except for on my own. When I play with others there is just a big gaping hole for the time being, thats why I rarely ever play now. Its just not the same. I just like it being me and the court now, it clears my head in my anger. MI really am going to join some type of sport or new team by January- I cant take this. I dont have a sense of belonging anymore. A huge part of me is missing and I want at least some of it back.
Posted on: Wed, 30 Oct 2013 01:46:35 +0000