Dang it B.j B.j. Stewart...I miss you. I try so hard to be strong, but Im ready for you to come home to me. I know youd be proud of how good Im handling everything but I need you. I dont want to be home without you anymore. I dont want to be without you, period. Im so proud of your progress, but some days (like right now), its just not fast enough. I hate waking up all hours of the night and youre not here snuggled up with me and Chaz and the puppy. I know God is taking care of you but Im just so sad right now. I miss you and I worry about you and I hate being away from you. I try to stay positive but some days are so overwhelming I just dont know anything else to do but cry like a baby. I love you and Im proud of you. And Im sorry for being sad. My heart just breaks for you and what youre going through. But I will stay strong for you and Ill never ever ever give up on you. Sorry friends...Im having a moment. Its all good. Sometimes the tears come without warning and I just really miss my love and all the plans we have made. I know we will have the life we wanted. Yes..reality says you will never be the same and things will be different. But I also know God can work a miracle if its His will and I hang on to that. But even if He chooses not to completely heal you, Ill never leave and if you dont get one percent better than what you are right now, Ill still never leave. You are my love, my heart, my life. I know you have a long road ahead of you but Ill be there cheering you and encouraging you the whole way. I choose to consider this a stumbling block weve gotta get over so we can get on with being a family. But oh my goodness...words cannot express the pain I feel for you and how badly I miss you. And for anybody wondering..no Im not losing my mind. Lol. Im just feeling a little overwhelmed and had to vent for a few. But Im gonna keep on keepin on and Im gonna do it with a smile in my heart. Happy Wednesday friends.
Posted on: Wed, 22 Oct 2014 10:01:08 +0000
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