Darcy Poppey Teri Wright Leja Kathleen Richards Tanya Wilson Malloy Im posting this publicly because Id like everyone to know that Ive made mistakes. Weve both made mistakes. We all do. Were human. Not everybody has the nerve to admit them or let alone make a public apology. But this means enough to me to do that. So please read this knowing I say it with the utmost sincerity. Heather, I know Ive said and done some truly bad and rotten things. Spoke words that I can never take back. Things that will never go away. Youll never know how deeply sorry I am for all of it. Youll never know how badly it hurts me to know that Ive hurt you this bad and the ones you love. I will never be able to forgive myself for what happened. For my words and actions. All I can do is apologize from the absolute bottom of my heart and soul. Ive made a lot of mistakes Im my life. Losing you is the biggest one ever. Heather, I love you more than you could ever know. I fell in love with you a long time ago. Before you told me you loved me for the first time on the futon in the apartment. I fall more and more in love with you everyday. The first time you asked if you could kiss me in my house standing at the kitchen counter I knew then and there I had found the final piece of my life. The person that could complete my heart. There is nothing I can say or do to take back what Ive done. I just hope that someday you can forgive me for what happened and see how much you mean to me. Maybe even find it in your heart to give me another chance to show you that Im not that person I was for that period of time. Answer some of the unanswered questions and feelings we both have. Some life changing things happened in my world and I did not handle them well. In turn it effected our relationship negatively. I have since looked back on my life and figured out what happened. Talked with loved ones and came to terms with my feelings about the things that temporarily altered who I really am. Just know that I will always love you and Brandon and I will always be here for you no matter what. You are my family and always will be. There is nothing I want more in my life than to make you happy. You are the love of my life and always will be. If things hadnt gone this way I was planning on having Brandon ask you to marry me at the finish line of the Josh. Im sorry I made things this bad and now I cant do that. It breaks my heart. Id just like everyone to know how sorry I am for all the mistakes Ive made. Tanya. Teri & Jason. Darcy. And especially Phil & Kathi. As well as any others I may have hurt along the way. Words will never be enough to explain how sorry I am. Because words are just that, words. Even tho they can hurt they are still just words, so please try to see my recent actions over my past words. As actions do speak louder. I have been trying my best over the past few weeks to attempt to make up for things Ive said out of anger and frustration. I can only hope that they will be seen for what they truly are..... The absolute honest truth. The person I really am. Love always, Chris.
Posted on: Mon, 18 Aug 2014 19:32:31 +0000
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