Day 1161 / 266 I made it. Its fall (sometime yesterday.) When I started my business I put in effect a one year - three year - five year - ten year plan. And I met each goal, re-setting the one year plan annually, three year plan (store budget - yearly salary increases - tax - utilities - operations projections etc.) year five (NYC storefront Baptist churches, local schools - band and service contracts), with the exception of the tenth year goal. And that was to buy a building. It was well on its way, great building on Goeffle Rd. on the border of Ridgewood, elevator, lots of parking and terrific build. I was having a lousy year personally and its ironic that I had just got done telling Dean (one of my full time managers) that I was such a mess I had no business involving anyone in it until Id sorted things out, than I saw Laurie walking across the parking lot. I scratched my chinny chin chin and said my my my. The beautiful building grew more and more transparent as this girl in my life began to come into focus. My attorney thought I was nuts! I had negotiated such a great deal on the building and it was worth twice what I would have paid for it...I looked at my attorney Steve and said you know what a sh1twreck my life has been...I just want to have some fun and relax. Steve told me I could do both but I knew better. Something deep inside me told me to just focus my attention on the girl and let the hassle and legalities of a new building go. There was nothing wrong with where I was. It was a great location. It was hard to let go of that piece of the plan and tell myself well, you DID do it (almost more or less) so shut up and be happy. I had poled 20% of my customers and asked them if they would make the extra little bit of the trip to the new store. They all said yes so long as the route I had chosen would deliver them within the time I claimed it would. And after letting go of my building and accepting the fate I had chosen, A bridge along the route to the new store washed out. It would have been a catastrophe! I might have lost everything. A total disaster. But I didnt. And as the credits began to roll, I walked off smiling with my arm around the girl. THE END Where was I? Its fall. I made it to another season. Seems like Ive lived my life for so many years by putting time governed plans into effect. For me, these past three years, its been a season at a time. I dont like admitting I didnt think Id see my birthday (August 18th) and I didnt think Id see the fall either. Every one of you who say hang in there...I am. Do I dare set Halloween as my next goal as I did last year? Or maybe Christmas? I cannot take life one day at a time. I really cant My current goal is transferring all my original music on analog tapes to digital medium. I feel like I am running with my ankle chained to a tree. But hey..I can look at it like Im not going anywhere, am I? Yeah I think that works for me. It took this entire post for me to find yet another positive and now I am going to go and live it. Thanks for all your time ~ S
Posted on: Tue, 23 Sep 2014 12:58:09 +0000