Day 117 of 365 and a puzzling day. Lovely day with kids cooking up a storm tonight for dinner as in part an apology for the juicing experiment earlier...ok like the sat nav trust is true! When it says peel the Orange it means peel the Orange. Minijiggler was fine with it though me thinks the strawberry flavoured protein powder was a step too far...well we live and learn though I must say after a packet of spinach, four carrots and four oranges we were all rather full of the joys of spring...for now. Ever get the impression were not meant to have it all? It does feel...and I apologise for offering Devilwearsprada as philosophical fodder...that when your personal life swills the pan youre due a promotion. Balance would be good. Or perhaps I need to learn to trust more. Ive arranged a few meets and emailed a few ideas that could really make 2015 a scarily cool year. Meeting a lady this week turned out to be so liberating. We spoke of just do it and how coming from the work we used to do we were so used to ticking every box that by the time we did the world had moved on. What the activist in need felt she needed for measure was stifling. Imagine being able to stride forward with an idea - a good heart and a clear mind. Another truism brought achingly into focus is the potential of one. One meeting can change so much. One chance can open to that chance or in fact THE chance. Ive been working in a specialised bubble for so long. I raged against the edges shouting about the need for flexibility and outward looking...safely from the inside of my small pond. Networking sounds so simple and in a work coat it makes perfect sense but working solo feels like such a different world...liberating with so many options. Ive arranged to meet a PhD chap and queried more about the concept and how to take this forward into real tangible terms. Do I have the strength for this? Helped minijiggler put fairy lights up in her room. Have been mesmerised by Glennclose this evening. Albert Nobbs is simple and profound Im blown away. Conscious that today my emotions feels skin deep - exposed to the flick of music, writing or as in this case isolation. Having a soft heart isnt a choice. Its how we then set about protecting or deflecting from it. Positively isnt easy but neither is negativity in my experience. What I need to accept is theyre both sapping. Self-care indeed.
Posted on: Sun, 04 Jan 2015 00:35:13 +0000