Day 179. I am only days away from being free from meth for six months. I have made it to another one of my goals. That is so fulfilling. Back when I did meth I set many goals but rarely achieved success by fulfilling any of them. Now for six entire months I have set many goals and have achieved each and every one of them. This journey has been a ride of a lifetime. Life on meth was like being a passenger on a run away train. I would stand up and then get slammed down to the ground, stand up again and be flung into a wall. I was bruised and battered 179 days ago and had been for six years. I somehow managed to pull myself together, stand up one last time and walked away from the self induced prison I had locked myself in. I will not lie and say that it has been easy. Getting healthy required a lot of hard work. I had two surgeries and suffered tons of pain from those. I have had people try and break me down. I am sure that many people doubted me at first, but really it didnt matter. I didnt do meth for anyone else, and I didnt quit meth for anyone else either. I went down to the bottom of that pit of meth addiction by myself and I had to climb out of it using my own two hands. I could not have done it if I were to be worrying about what others were thinking of me, as I had always done before. I had to keep myself focused on my goal. And that was beating my addiction to meth. I decided 13 days into my recovery to start a facebook blog not to show off or be boastful. I did it because for six years I was an addict and I walked around too ashamed and too afraid to ask for help. I was so scared of what others thought. Even before I became addicted to meth, I was so scared of people and of being myself in front of others. So when I finally got the strength to walk away from meth, I felt compelled to share my daily thoughts in an effort to overcome my fear of people in a sense. I felt like those around me had seen my decent into the darkness all while I was so out of control. Now I am the driver on my personal road to recovery. And it feels so good to have control for once in my life. I see my second chance as a gift and I wanted to share it with anyone who wants it. I am proof that someone can change and even if they take a wrong turn in their life, there is still hope. There is always the next Exit. It is never too late. I not only got free from my meth addiction, I gained self esteem and self confidence along the way. By opening up and sharing my daily thoughts during my recover I have unlocked the real me that I was too afraid to be my entire life. I am aware that I am not nor will I ever be perfect, nobody is. But I am fine being who I am now and that is what really matters. I can look in the mirror and face myself each day and know that I am truly living life to the best of my ability and I couldnt be more proud. My next goal is to continue to live in the moment, and not let my past hold me back. I look forward to the next chapter in my life.
Posted on: Sat, 29 Mar 2014 22:20:56 +0000
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