Day 204: August 4, 2014 Thankfulness for Breakdowns No, Im not only talking about having a nervous breakdown, just so you know. Im talking about THINGS in our lives that breakdown. Namely my phone (see the post I wrote last night on my wall titled The Tweeky Rant: A Short Angry Cell Phone Novella by Emily Reese). It goes deeper than that and reminded me of a backpacking trip I took when I was a senior with some amazing friends of mine from high school. After my phone broke down on the way home from such a wonderful non-stressful and rockstar weekend in San Fran with close friends yesterday, I went into high tweek mode. I dont do this as often as I used to, but I can tell you that the term Tweekeasy was born because of me. When I used to get into these dark places and act out on them, my friends would tell me to do just that. Tweakeasy, Emily. So, because my friends werent there to tell me that yesterday, I had a full on Tweek Fest. Let me tell you, Xanex doesnt touch these rampages of mine. Once I had calmed down (thanks Oliver X for helping out with that last night), I started reflecting on how the things that supposedly make our lives easier actually can cause the most stress in our lives. I go into full panic mode when my phone gets pissed at my lack of appreciation. So what the heck does that have to do with my backpacking trip over 25 years ago? Well, it is this: my awesome friends and I were all worried before we left about showering, shaving our legs, taking biffs in the woods, not having contact with our normal lives, including our walkmans, and it caused us to freak a little. But once we spent those 7 days in the San Juan Mountains in Colorado, none of that shite mattered up there. Our lives were simpler. Intentionally communing with Creation is the best form of worship. Arguing didnt happen. We had to rely on each other for our needs. Communication with each other was pure, simple and honest. (Sometimes too honest, right, you beautiful ladies who were there? Sarcasm Hurts). It was a Mountain Top Experience, both figuratively and literally. And then we descended into Base Camp. We started stressing again about the things that we didnt have while we were up there. Calling first in showers, shaving our legs and pits, primping, modern day stuff... and I remember feeling stressed with tension. I seem to recall a little arguing between us, though I dont remember what it was about. Maybe it was just me arguing. Wouldnt surprise me. I was likely doing my Tweeking then, too. Anyway, my point is that yesterday, when I felt like my life was going to end in shambles because of my phone breaking down and taking a crap and my subsequent Tweek Fest, I realized how unimportant those things really are in the scheme of life. So I was able to breathe and Tweekeasy on my own by stopping my own breakdown before I completely lost it. Breakdowns bring us back to the basics. We realize how dependent we are on things to make our lives better when really, we have all we need right between our eyes and inside our chest cavity. Its called thoughts and love. So, yeah, Im going to go get a new cell phone today. But Im thankful that it broke down because I wouldnt have thought about the important things, like friends from forever ago who helped make a 7 day trip into something for the record books in my life. We all need reminders to get back to the basics from time to time. And sometimes it takes a bitter and unappreciated purple cell phone to breakdown to remind me of it. Tweekeasy, people. Tweekeasy. Love, Thankful for Breakdowns P.S. Please let me know who I am forgetting ladies (who went on that trip). I am drawing a few blanks. Forgive me.
Posted on: Mon, 04 Aug 2014 16:31:12 +0000
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