Day 53 Monday, October 27th when I went to sleep last night I realized my window faces east which is great for a beautiful view of the bay and mountains but also the sun rise my innate night-owl thought »oh no! Im going to wake up at the crack of dawn!« forgetting, of course that I had been waking up before dawn for the last seven weeks I woke up at 4 again from strange dreams about primates (relating to Randy? Modselektor? the gorilla suit too) there was a lizard-like primate with scaley skin (it looked like a cross between a monkey, a gecko and some sort of insect) who lives in decaying leaves that are filled with bugs (referencing the bed bugs) who live off the leaf mold and bugs and a girl who had been kidnapped and tortured (relating to a story I read on Facebook) but the girl was a type of primate who, instead of hair, grew mushrooms all over her body (as an external digestive system) and the killer made her shave them off to try and make lose weight she also had to whittle off the fatty parts of her body this was all being explained to me by some forensics person what was amazing was when I woke I heard the exact phrases being used! its so rare to remember actual words from dreams so I snapped out of my sleep (mostly because my hand landed on something I thought was a bedbug. . . but looking at it in the light I saw it was just a seed or something: no bug!) I wrote it down on my other phone which is busy making a time-lapse video right now ( when I finished writing this up to Now. I realized that the other phone is on wifi, so it transferred the writing automatically through iCloud. . . here it is: 4:22am dream about primates there is a lizardy scaley primate who lives in piles of decomposing leaves entirely infested with bugs it lives off them as with all primates, their digestive organs are usually held inside their skin. but Pony Walters is an attractive giant, it is unclear why her body is covered with mushrooms or why the killer made her constantly shave her self. it is speculated the constant whittling away was a reference to her being too heavy to him and he was forcing her to lose weight through cutting it from her outside pilgrimage to a wet mossy place but here, we can use dads study or the floor room. . . the showroom floors display room with the magical Crystal stairs thats right, just put your foot forward to step out and the light will shine that you can walk on yes lie down in the furry Gorilla suit cloak slide into it that will keep you warm primate who has no fur ) then I was able to go back to sleep - it seems common here in Spain to have longer, thinner pillows than I am used to in the US that doesnt mean much in a twin bed but in a double bed the pillow is very long which Ive only encountered before when I house-sat at Figleaf Gardens where it was referred to as a body pillow it is nice to wrap around, like cuddling especially nice to take the pain off the foot! so instead of feeling bothered by the sun I woke. . . surprised. . . to the sky lightening over Monte Pindo and the bay I opened the windows sat up in bed wrapped the sheets around me moved closer to the window looked out moved closer to the window looked out moved all the way to the edge of the bed found a comfortable position for my legs and gazed out at the sea the sky the clouds (very few, but tastefully placed) then reached back and grabbed my iPhone (5s, the one with iOS 8 on it. . . which has a timelapse feature in the native camera app I have only used once so far before) and set it up on the window ledge there: I dont have to worry about taking any pictures the camera will do it for me I can just watch and I watched I did a set of mantras then just watched the seagulls flying around the boats coming in and out the clouds gently moving I did some more mantras . . . Id been meaning to. . . but just hadnt done it so today is practice for doing it still without walking my body began to sway in rhythm - my body likes movement I said the mantras quietly to respect people in this hotel and outside the window! Images passed through my mind of places Id walked bars we had walked into to order juice tortilla empanada this view is astoundingly beautiful but the paths. . . the open fields. . . the old stone houses. . . the forests. . . I love them even the frustration of foods it was so simple I felt The Camino was completely satisfying because of the drive to Keep Walking all other desires became unimportant the myriad desires became easily satisfyable by becoming trivial my life has generally been a life with little purpose wishing only to. . . Fix Everything or. . . Solve All Of The Problems I have rarely let myself get engrossed for such a long period of time with making something important but walking all day every day requires a lot of effort and attention strength, fortitude and all of my impossible wishes. . . well, not fair to say they faded away I worked them into my mantras my writing my secret writing my qi-gung, my reiki but I could not dwell in them, get lost in them I had to keep walking and see the arrows I had to pay attention to the world around me in all of its beauty and danger I had to respect the needs of those with me it was not a terrible burden but it was a task I must attend to and it occupied me meditating with this beautiful view gave me time to see that, to feel it always more space for deeper understanding. . . Manjushris mantra saw the sun peak over the mountain then I did Mercurys and the sun was in my eyes so I lay back in bed to write I have a lot of writing to do yesterday always seems much heavier than today . . . but I wrote yesterday yesterday its the two days before that that need attending to now. . . . I wrote for a while but easily distracted I fell into online conversations Signe said goodbye (again) she was leaving on the 11:40 bus to Santiago the local fellow Ive been talking with reminded me it was siesta time - he had done some shopping for me should he bring it over now or after Ive slept? I chose to take a siesta even though I didnt feel tired I lay down and started doing reiki as a mantra I felt chilly and covered my body except my right foot like before the reiki made me pass out quick and heavy into a thick bleary sleep I surfaced did more reiki slept more . . . I was woken by M, the local fellow he brought bags of stuff in with him I told him I was surprised the woman of the hotel hadnt come up to get some money from me he said she was frightened and worried - a familiar story but none of my wounds show any sign of infection Im not worried I just need time to heal. like our last meeting we spent most of today talking telling each other life stories there is a simple admiration and kinship and we cuddled for a while which was nice I wanted to do something for him as thanks for him bringing me groceries so I offered him a Reiki session I was surprised he had never had one before - he talks with intricate perception about energy movement. . . i just assumed the two were inseparable these days it had been a long time since Id done just a reiki session on someone I always work it into my massage sessions but cant really do any massage with my scratched up hands so I. . . reikid him! it was probably 20 minutes or so some of it was more powerful and focused than other parts but I felt good about it he obviously did too . . . we spent more time together after that . . . then I felt very tired and bid him goodnight it was hard for him to leave but when he did I felt on the brink of sleep my mom had sent a message asking to play cribbage so we did til it crashed then I told her I must sleep goodnight! I was asleep before ten thirty.
Posted on: Wed, 29 Oct 2014 17:06:59 +0000
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