Day 8 of the Glad Game: I had no idea when we first went to visit John of God at Casa de Dom Inacio in Feb, 2011, that it would shake my world like a earthquake and cause shifts on every level...from quitting the AHP organization (already wrote about that) to moving cross country to writing books and recording meditation apps to learning how to engage the medical system, etc...I asked for a new paradigm and I got it--not realizing what discarding the old paradigm would involve. About a year ago, my world of relationships got its tremor.... I found out that someone Id considered a friend had been lying to me and about me to others. I grew up in a home where deceit was a given, and I lived on the streets where deceit was a survival tool. I had thought Id left deceit behind as I evolved...but I hadnt. And it was a hard blow for me. It shattered my beliefs about relationship and friendship just as surely as the horse riding accident had shattered my vertebrae. I lost all bearings as to who was trustworthy and who cared about me for awhile. It was an experience of profound loss for me to lose an abiding sense of friendships I could count on. Still, Im glad that tremor came. It required me to reflect deeply on relationships--both in terms of realizing the patterns in myself that allowed people to expect me to always be strong and giving, expect me to keep them happy and feel justified in vengeance when I didnt...as well to reflect deeply on the kind of friend I want to be and attract. As paradoxical as it seems, the experience taught me to be more open hearted--even as I realized that some Id thought friends simply werent--and walked away from the past and relationships that werent founded on actions of caring. It was truly life changing to look in the mirror and acknowledge how Id helped to create unbalanced relationships. It has been absolutely freeing to let go and move on. No blame. Just no more. So that now there is room in my opening heart to receive a whole new paradigm of friendship. I am double dipping glad today--Glad for the event that helped me open my heart to being loved and being love and glad that I dove deep into the John of God process... heading back next month ;) This is the Glad Game challenge: Every day, for 10 days, think of a condition or circumstance or experience that you have perceived as an adversity or an obstruction...then twist into something that brought unforeseen gifts and/or blessings. Who wants to take this challenge with me?
Posted on: Wed, 03 Sep 2014 17:00:37 +0000
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