Dear diary,..I feel lonely more often than I have in my entire life. my sister has not seen me since I ve been here. I don t even know where she lives. I think she hates me. My mom and I can t get along and basically we are currently at the point where she no longer wants to help me and I m on my own when it comes to surviving; asking help from people I have not really known that long. It s kind of scary. I have not talked to my father or my step mom since I ve left missouri. I just want my friends and family back. I get angry and frustrated. I tell myself it s not fair. sympathy. I don t want. I just want my friends back. I forgot why I came here in the first place. I just want a place to call my own where my family and friends can live happily and call it their home without having someone tells us we owe them money or be afraid of being kicked out on the streets. I think that s a dream worth dreaming. All my friends have moved away and are living in separate cities all over the country. It as if we are born to eventually separate from each other not live together.but I don t want to believe that notion at all. I thought at one time my life could be like a norman rockwell painting. that was a dream. I don t think I can find love here but at the same time I m skeptical of my own opinion on that. If there is someone out there who can tolerate my open opinion and my ever changing mood due to the stress I ve been under lately, that would be great. But I don t want to ask that from someone. I guess I should give them a warning: May come with some difficulty.*written in figurative period blood. not literal but figurative*
Posted on: Sun, 24 Nov 2013 07:15:35 +0000
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