Do I have an original thought in my head? My bald head? Maybe if I were happier, my hair wouldnt be falling out. Life is short. I need to make the most of it. Today is the first day of the rest of my life. Im a walking cliche. I really need to go to the doctor and have my leg checked. Theres something wrong. A bump. The dentist called again. Im way overdue. If I stopped putting things off, Id be happier. All I do is sit on my fat ass. If my ass wasnt fat, Id be happier. I wouldnt have to wear these shirts with the tails out all the time. Like thats fooling anyone. Fat ass. I should start jogging again. Five miles a day. Really do it this time. Maybe rock climbing. I need to turn my life around. What do I need to do? I need to fall in love. I need to have a girlfriend. I need to read more, improve myself. What if I learned Russian or something? Or took up an instrument? I could speak Chinese. I would be the screenwriter who speaks Chinese. And plays the oboe. That would be cool. I should get my hair cut short. Stop trying to fool everyone into thinking I have a full head of hair. How pathetic is that? Just be real. Confident. Isnt that what women are attracted to? Men dont have to be attractive. But thats not true, especially these days. Almost as much pressure on men as there is on women these days. Why should I be made to feel I have to apologize for my existence? Maybe its my brain chemistry. Maybe thats whats wrong with me: bad chemistry. All my problems and anxiety can be reduced to a chemical imbalance... ...or some kind of misfiring synapses. I need to get help for that. But Ill still be ugly, though. Nothings gonna change that. Shut up! https://youtube/watch?v=6Geq3wVvaNE
Posted on: Sat, 23 Aug 2014 18:39:17 +0000