{{{ENCOURAGEMENT}}} When I talk to people about my stand theres often a misconception that it or I was perfect. They werent. Theres a a preconceived notion that my stand was short in means of time because of something I did. It wasnt about me at all. |||Let me tell you how PERFECT I am. In July 2009, I got the Im not happy speech. I spent the next ten months pressing, ridiculing, crying, panicking, blasting, vilifying, investigating, sharing, wailing, stomping, demanding, worrying, and pleading. I asked others their opinions, cursed my husband out, spoke ill of him (really ill if you knew my mouth and where it could go with bad words that cut and belittled), went to see a divorce attorney, cornered my husband about a divorce and grilled him as to why he had not filed yet. I wrote about 20 emails to the other person that I never sent that ranged from chewing her out to the size of a dime to trying to wake her up with sordid details that might scare her off. I contemplated cutting all of my husbands clothes, setting his car on fire and selling his golf clubs. I thought of sending emails to all his friends to tell everyone what he was doing and following him at night to catch him in the act of anything. ||||What God allows is for a mighty purpose. It was at the end of those ten months when my husband moved out despite my protests. That vehicle, is what drove me to my knees and on my face seeking Gods hand, His touch, His robe. Anything I could get to that was of Him. The one thing I did not want to happen had just happened. I had no where and no one to run to but God. I had been knocked flat on my back and had no where else to look but UP! Manipulation was not needed and would not work here, I surrendered all and that included surrendering my husband. I could not change him, only God could. I had no abilities to convince him, but God did. I wasnt able to open his eyes but God is in the business of removing scales. I didnt know how to soften a calloused heart, but God knew how. Can I take the credit of anything that was done? Absolutely not. God did a work in me just as Hes doing in you. He transformed my thoughts, my heart, my sight and Hes still continuing to this day. Standing never ends. Nothing done was of MY DOING because I was completely incapable and certainly not wise enough to know the changes that was needed and to see how it should be done. |||God is working in each of you. As God was working in me and I was hoping it could be seen, God was working in my husband in ways I could not see. Nothing had changed in his actions or words from where I was looking but it was being done behind the mountain nonetheless and when God got us each to where we needed to be (a far place from perfection, still in need of work), He revived, renewed, restored and rebuilt. God is rolling back the stone to the tomb of your dead marriage. It can be one quick push, a steady progression of a smooth roll or a slow and choppy slide but Hes doing it, even when you dont see it. He gets all the glory because the only life that can rise from the dead must come from our Father. If you keep your eyes on Jesus, if you look to Him and what you know He can do and what His promises are, youll stay encouraged and walk above incomprehensible circumstances the way Peter did when he walked to Jesus on water. When we take our off God, just as Peter did, the circumstances will pull us under. |||The greatest gift. Its not my restored marriage, its my relationship with God. Ive said it before and Ill say it again, I would go back to that day in July 2009 when I had the rug pulled from under me just to get to where I am with Christ today. Just to experience Him picking me up from the hole I was in and steadying my footsteps and righting me on His path. Marriage reconciliation is a by product to the relationship with our Heavenly Father. When we seek Him first and put Him first and trust Him first and believe Him first, all the extras come because He is that loving. He is that merciful, He extends that much grace and because He is a promise keeper.
Posted on: Sat, 05 Apr 2014 19:42:17 +0000
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