Even as a writer, a lot of the time, I cant find the right words to use. I feel stuck in my life, at the moment... Feeling rather unmotivated, if you will. I love my friends and family. I do my best to be a dope person to everyone, although it seems you cant please everyone, as Ive come to learn. Its almost as if with me trying to accommodate people, Im forgetting to please myself in the meanwhile, which is odd, because I find pleasure in helping others. No matter how hard I try, I cant reach a higher state of mind than the mentality thats already in my possession. Truly lost sight of the bigger picture. Lost sight of everything Ive ever wanted. Im not at all a selfish person, ask anyone I know in real life, but I feel like I should start being selfish if Im to achieve anything that I desire. Support only lasts if its beneficial to the supporters. I love my people. I truly do. You couldve been friends with anyone else, but you chose me, and I love you for that. Im not depressed, suicidal, or any shit like that... Im just pacing around a purgatory of selflessness with patience, and selfishness with eagerness. I just need somebody who fully understands. Its just seems as if no one really cares about who I am as a person, just what I can do for them. Only a select few truly understand me, and they dont even get what I go through 100%. Ill be alright, though. Im just looking for happiness instead of just being content. You feel me?
Posted on: Mon, 07 Jul 2014 07:56:42 +0000
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