Everyday, i wake up back to this nightmare. The lonely path on which only more rocks are thrown. The greatest support that kept me going passed away more then a month ago. How much more must i take and how many times must i fall down and just find the power to get up and take more again? I know i am a warriors spirit, but this is just insane. Now… the hellish large amount of money i have to pay for basically SAVING my brother. I should be rewarded like HELL, if anything. I HATE the fact that i can no longer THINK of a bright future. NOT alone and NOT after getting punched in the balls by reality too much. After i lost Lucky, it had to be enough. The end. OK, i now have my new dog, Dio, but still… the amount of work i have to raise him probably is much more then the hours of sleep i have per night. If i could, i just wanted to leave this place with Dio. I dont know where i will go, dont really care. Because my life is Hell my own room is so full of negativity that it is a burden to breath. I want to see Lucky only one more time. I did not have the chance to say goodbye to my most beloved friend. And it pisses me off as much as it stings my heart. I want to experience six to eight hours of sleep every night. Then i would have more energy, and motivation, to deal with all this annoying hellish shit myself. All i need, is someone beside me, smiling. " It is all going to be all right, i am here for you as you are there for me. " I will just keep on fighting for nothing but the thought in mind that one day, i will slowly murder every mortal and/or god who messed with my life or just stood back and did nothing to change it. We gotta have our goals, after all.
Posted on: Mon, 09 Sep 2013 11:53:07 +0000
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