Excerpt 57: INTERLUDE VI Excerpts from the Chief Communicator’s Occasional Log April 1, 2013 Being able to “see” parts of the “future” begins for me at an early age, and continues, often during high fevers. My clearest and earliest memory of this skill is from an experience at the age of 9 ½. It is mid-December, and my older brother, Tommy (becomes Dr. Thomas Ackerman, M.D.), and I develop fairly severe cases of pneumonia. We attend a wonderful summer camp for the first time the previous summer, Camp Cedar, in the Lake of the Ozarks in Missouri (we live in St. Louis County), and the annual camp reunion is scheduled for later in December, during school vacation. I can’t speak for Tommy, but I am missing camp terribly. My home life is quite fractious, and the harmony and pleasures of camp beckon daily. I am aching and impatient to recapture the feeling of being at camp, and to see my camp friends and favorite counselors at the reunion. The reunion is about a week away, and we are both still very sick; I can’t take a breath without starting a coughing fit, and I have a fairly high fever most of every day. I keep trying to picture the reunion, imagine who might come and how fun it will be. But, when I try to envision it, I keep coming up with a white, blank space. I think about the reunion and anticipate being with my favorite people, but I can’t “see” anything about that day. As the day approaches, my mom keeps checking on us and shaking her head when I ask about going to the reunion. Finally, the day before, she tells us that we are still too sick and cannot go. I am devastated, sobbing and angry. But, I do feel very sick, and, I know she is right. One of the reasons, I realize later, that I know she is right is that the white, blank space I kept getting, instead of “preview” pictures, for the upcoming event, means I will not be there. Somehow, my lack of images comforts me, prepares me for the disappointment. I grow to understand that, for me, when I want to determine the status of an upcoming event, I get one of three types of experiences: 1) the white, blank space means “yes,” the event would occur, but I will not be there; 2) any clear pictures, “previews,” with me and others I know in the pictures, means it will happen, and I will be there; or, 3) black, blank space means the event is going to be changed, e.g., cancelled, not be able to occur, be postponed, etc. I later become able to refine this ability further. I become able to determine if certain people will be at an event or not, or if spaces will “open up” in a seemingly full roster, to allow wait-listed people to be moved up, to be admitted. When I am doing pre-registration or planning attendance for an event, I use written lists. The names of people who are going to be attending, wherever their current placement on the lists might be, will “light up.” The names of those who will be canceling or unable to attend will go dim or even disappear. This skill is very handy when I am managing registration or deciding whether to purchase a nonrefundable ticket for myself or others. These abilities are in the realm of “clairvoyance” or “precognition.”
Posted on: Wed, 18 Sep 2013 11:23:47 +0000
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