FROM ANXIETY TO FREEDOM I started LoveurSoul 8 years ago and whilst I knew at the time what the company name meant I now know I did not feel it myself and part of my journey was exactly that, me learning to love my soul. Self acceptance, self love and compassion are all buzz words of the moment and whilst Love does indeed make the world go around our ability to feel it and really show it is often somewhat lacking. Simply because our human fear of judgement and rejection for being true to ourselves often stops us from shining our light for others as well as ourselves. During my journey, I have in parts kicked and screamed to hold onto what I knew and what made me feel safe and it always evolved around fear and anxiety and even when I had healed the physical bits like leaky gut, asthma, eczema, IBS, and Chronic Fatigue I still hung on to fear and anxiety like a crutch, simply because I was addicted to it. I became frightened of being seen and built a wall to hide behind so I did not have to feel vulnerable and afraid. In the last 8 years I have been blessed to meet the most incredible people all with different storys and all with different things to teach me. Some are still in my life and some have passed through. Some have taught me incredibly tough lessons and some have somehow softened me but the biggest teacher by far has been me and my own willingness (or not) to evolve and grow and finally let go of my fears of rejection, lack of self worth and enormous lack of self beleif. All things I had cleverly masked with bravado and dis-ease for so many years. Yes at times I feel incredibly vulnerable, Yes at times it really hurts and sometimes I felt incredibly alone and adrift but each time I felt this I learnt to delve deeper into my intuition and to hear what my soul was desperately trying to tell me. Every time it was trust, patience, compassion for myself and know you are exactly where you are supposed to be. Now to be clear during this 8 years as well as building the foundation of the business, there have been big bumps in my life perhaps not on a physical level but definitely on an emotional one. Not least losing 90% of my friends and family, letting go of my forever home (something I had craved all my life ) and my mother in law being diagnosed and passing over with cancer within 6 months. I share this detail not be dramatic but to highlight how much normal trauma we all go though during our lives and how it is not what happens to us that defines our future but how we learn and grow from the experiences. What have I learnt ? I have learnt I can only be treated with respect by others when I love and respect myself. Material things matter a lot less than how we feel and how we make others feel, our legacy in life is not what we leave behind but what we do and what we experience whilst we are here. Our health is in our hands and how we process our emotions has a huge impact on our health far more so than what we eat and what exercise we do. (although never under-estimate what benefits they have). Yes I do want awesome, cherished friends in my life, yes I do want to one day own my own home again but for now I am so grateful to be alive, to be strong and more importantly to love and accept who I am and be in a position to gift to my children the ability of expanding their horizons and being the best version of them they can. By learning this I have learnt to feel truly abundant and grateful and I feel my tribe arriving swiftly and strongly and I know that now I have learned to truly feel what loving my soul means I know that I can finally help others find the essence of who they are and help them to grow and thrive too. Why ? because this world really does need more shining lights for others to follow and it all starts with others learning to LoveurSoul.
Posted on: Wed, 21 Jan 2015 11:12:26 +0000
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