First of all I just have to say I miss you so much . this is like a nightmare that I cant wake up from . I didnt know what to do when I first found out you were dead . I was just about to go to sleep when I saw what you dad posted . I balled my eyes out . you couldnt even make it to Christmas . You were almost 13 . you were almost a teenager . I remember I really wanted to come see you before Christmas too . But we snapchated and texted but that isnt the same . As I sit here and think why.? Why him.? Why take a young , strong , loveable , brave stubborn boy . You touched soo much lifes and hearts ❤ I wish it wasnt you that had to leave . I wish that you didnt have to leave it at that . If there was a choice of me or you Ill definitely no matter what treat you places . I guess God decided it was your time to go and become an angel . I know if you were here right now while everyone is crying in pain youll be hugging us saying Everything is fine and everything is okay , Ill see you again some day. Dont cry . But no sadly your not here to tell us that . Your not here to lift us off our feet . You were my hero along with a lot of other people . But you were the hero that always have a big fat smile on his face . I dont think I would know where I would be if I never meet you in that kindergarten class . I dont know where id be in life if you werent apart of it . I miss you so much . Im really sorry it had to end this way . Nobody really knew how close we were . nobody knows how hard it is if one of you best friends was getting better one moment and the next gone . Its so hard to even see your parents without wanting to hug them forever . Its hard to see your dad because every time we would come see you he would say heyyy ladies I loved that . Its so hard to see your Lexi and Nickolas and even River without crying anymore . Every time I think about them I cry because I remember on your birthday we were taking Nickolas home from seeing you and he told me that its sad because now he playing guitar hero all by himself . Lexi and Nickolas and River were too young for you to die . But all 4 of you have a great bond . I hope they will remember that . You and your dogs were like the 3 musketeers . I so proud of you Noah you did so much in your life . i dont know how you could do it all .You were the happiest kid I ever met . you always had a smile on your face even in the hospital . You were the only boy I could trust . You dont know how hard it is for all of us to live life without you here . I love you so much Noah . Your my angel . I feel so bad because of how I treated you . But I would go back in time any day , and show you . Its so hard . im balling my eyes out just writing this .Ill see you again one day buddy. I remember last year at challenge day I wrote you a letter . I was crying the whole time . no one will ever replace . I think about you all the time . When I wake up I look at you picture and when I go to sleep I look at your picture .You never leave my mind. Im so thankful for meeting such a wonderful person . My heart may be stattered in a million pieces that may never be put back together again . But your still in there. I promise you that . My main Christmas wish is for you to come back but everybody know that that cant happen . No matter how much I wish I just cant .But god should feel special because he has the best angel ever looking over all of the people who love him . Love you buddy . RIP . Fly high . See you soon . #hawkeyes 02-10-01 12-18-13 ❤
Posted on: Thu, 18 Dec 2014 12:01:44 +0000
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