For the longest time, it seemed that I was the only one that cared about me. Putting all your hard work into making your Instagram, getting at almost 12K.. Growing your YouTube channel up to 2.1K, only to have It thrown back in your face. Have the only two people you truly trust then go against you.. Having one of those friends drop you when that profile you put so much hard work into was thrown in the trash, and then be accused of using that person. Putting so much heart and potential in writing a long letter to that person explaining to them there is no reason for using them and that you care about them, but then, getting a short little message back, and then ignored for the rest of the day. Are you getting it now? Let someone take away any sense of privacy or security you might still possess. then have someone use that insecurity to satisfy their own twisted curiosity Then come to realize your making mountains out of molehills. Realize how petty youve become. I lost my my accounts that made me have the courage to move on in life and read these amazing comments having all these people support me, then it all be thrown out the window, and having that one friend you truly trusted say , it will be okay, Ill help you through this, we will get you back up there. And me being stupid enough to even listen to it, to let that trust come back around and bite you in your ass after the same night that person told you theyd help you through this to saying, your just using me, and my mom hates you, and so does my other friends..I cant help you.. I made a new account to get back on my feet because I know theres kids and teens out there that need me, Im an inspiration to them, that I motivate them, I wanted to be that person.. I got to 3K in 1 day and then BOOM I was hacked again.. And this time i knew who it was, he told me.. And its sad that one of my friends that I truly trusted put him up to it.. It hurts. Jealousy? Maybe? Because I was growing faster then I should, that I had 11K and my use to be Bestfriend was dying inside waiting for my account to vanish so Id have no followers and everybody would forget about me, and then that person would be the only one to have the fame. Sure, it may feel like you cant get a grip, it may seem that every time someone offers you a hand up, they just let go and you slip further down, but I still tell myself, but, you must stop being so pessimistic, Siarra, and learn to trust those around you , but if I do, it will only make things worse.. Obviously all the people I trust hear these rumors and accuse me of betrayal, when they dont know the real story, you have to remember, theres two sides to the story. And then..well.. Certain thoughts begin creeping around. The rumors finally get to me, and we all know we cant disprove a rumor. Will I ever get control of my life? Will I always be shoved back and pushed around by those I trust? Will my life ever go where I want? I want to see peoples reactions at school if one of the students never came back. - truly Siarra
Posted on: Fri, 28 Mar 2014 21:16:56 +0000
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