From my email inbox: Thank you so much for this page and for allowing us to share our stories. Here is mine! In 1994 I was 16 and became pregnant with my first child! Please do not judge me for my actions because I have long suffered from this!! I had a normal pregnancy with absolutely no complications. I turned 17 in March and I went into labor on April 13, 1995. When I got to the hospital they were hooking me up to the monitors but could not find a heartbeat. They did an ultrasound and it was found my babys heart had stopped beating! They made me go into labor and have the baby naturally. I found out that it was a healthy baby boy but at some point the week before he had turned himself and the cord was wrapped around his neck 3 times! We named him Derek Michael! I was devastated and was told by some people at my church that I was being punished for getting pregnant before marriage. For a long time I believed this. I married my high school sweetheart in 1998 and we decided to start our family and try again. I gave birth to a healthy daughter Taylor Marie in December of 1999. In April of 2004 I found out I was pregnant again. On Mothers Day of that year I had a miscarriage! I didnt want to see anyone and locked myself away for a couple of weeks when I came to the realization I needed to get back to work and be a mommy to Taylor. In November of 2004 I was pregnant again with another boy. The only issue I had with this pregnancy was gestational diabetes. He was measuring big so I was induced almost 3 weeks early on July 6,2005. My son Logan David was born a healthy happy baby boy. He was a chubby little thing but healthy. On October 6, 2005 I wasnt feeling well and had contemplated staying home with him that day but decided to go ahead and go. That is a decision I would regret and still to this day do. I received a call around lunch time from my babysitters husband that the sitter had laid him down for a nap and when she went to check on him she found him unresponsive and not breathing. My precious baby boy had past away from positional asphyxiation. How could God have taken another baby from me?? Why didnt I stay home that day?? I once again had to bury a child and I lost another part of me!! I wasnt sure I could ever go through this again!! God had other plans for out family. I found out that December I was pregnant again! I was so scared to tell anyone in fear of something happening or what people would think of me. I wanted to be happy but at the same time I was still grieving for Logan and was terrified something would happen. I gave birth to a healthy baby boy named Aiden Joseph on August 11, 2006! I have been over protective of this child since the day he was born! I have anxiety attacks if I cant see him when we are in public. It is something I am working on but to this day I have a fear of losing the 2 beautiful children I still have with me! I feel that I was cheated from my children! I would love to have another baby but there is no way I could ever do it again emotionally! That is my long story and if I can help one person through this pain, I would do it in a heartbeat! No parent should ever have to bury a child but you know as well as I do, that is just something that doesnt happen! -Sylvia If you would like for me to post a question, share your story, or post a prayer request for you, just email me at iamamothertoanangel@yahoo
Posted on: Thu, 15 May 2014 21:33:29 +0000
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