From sun up to sun down I often find myself thinking of many things..... Like, when I was a Husband and how I failed miserably. Like, being the best Dad I could be and how I failed miserably. Like, being the best friend I could be and how I failed miserably. Like, being a good Christian man and how I failed miserably. Like going to Church like I should and how I failed miserably. For me, when it came time to saddle up and ride, I rode fast and hard. Going from one fire or fight to another....I rode light a Oklahoma Tornado through an old wooden barn in the middle of some old forgotten pasture. Its true...behind me, on the trail I blazed, called My Life...there are remnants of utter destruction and sadness. Many a tear, lots of whiskey, a few women and some bad decisions are all there for the world to see. There is no hiding who I have been and who I have become. Who have I become? A far more tempered man. A man of patience. Not rushing to cuss and fuss over things, time and people. I have learned through the power of failure many a lesson which showed me a better path, a better way. Not everyone has to go the way you want them to, In fact, sometimes, its better you go along with what others have to share and show. You just might learn a thing or two. I have become slower to drink, smoke and chase after those who wouldnt take a single step for me. Humility is a funny thing. It comes along at a time when one minute your riding high in the saddle and the next your laying flat on your back in a pile of mud and manure, looking back up and wondering What just happened? I suppose in short order, what I am saying is simply this....What I once was is not what I am today. God blessed this old cowboy with more than a couple of Second Chances. Man, I have been through it. Ive been in the fire and under fire. Ive been whipped, beat, shot, stomped on and had plenty of heart ache in my lifetime. One thing always remained constant; Every single time I prayed....I got an answer. Oh, sure, sometimes the answer wasnt the one I wanted....but I can tell you this....the answer He gave, turned out to be way better than the answer I had wanted or asked for. So, I reckon those prayers I said now and again between sun up and sun down were worth every breath....I try now to live my life in complete and utter thanks for the Mercy and Grace shown unto me, such an undeserving man. Feeling mighty humble and thankful to even be here and alive today. Me
Posted on: Tue, 23 Dec 2014 15:03:47 +0000
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