Good morning from a very cold (-5) Denver, Colorado. Well, its New Years Eve, the last day of 2014, a day that Ive been waiting for a few months now. 2014 has been a very somber and sobering experience for me and Juan Eduardo Carrion Ramos. We both lost two very important people and parts of our lives, one here at home where we all lived on 10/14/14, Mark Freed. Plus, Eduardo lost his very close first cousin, Lydia, in Puerto Rico just a few weeks ago after making a hasty visit to say goodbye to her. Despite these heartbreaking losses, Something came out of it for me and that was the ability to be more reflective about life and to realize that I possessed courage that I didnt know was there. I felt the strong presence of my parents with me on this difficult journey, supporting me and helping to prop me up when I felt that I couldnt go on. Their photo on my nightstand looking at me gave me hope every morning when I got up and every evening when I went to bed. I have no doubts that they and Mark still keep a watchful eye on me and Eduardo. I was strengthened by your comments of support and caring on my posts expressing the deep sorrow I felt this year with my loss and at the same time I missed and was disappointed by the lack of support of others who I thought cared about me as an old friend. But again, I very much realize life is a learning process that time allows you to see things more clearly and that learning never ends as long as we are breathing. The silver lining was reuniting with friends over this tragedy that I hadnt connected with in 40 years. Thank you! 2014 gave me the chance to state that love is universal and that love is love is love. It matters not whose heart feels that powerful emotion and that a loss is truly heartbreaking. A deep wound that takes precious time to heal if thats even possible. I am blessed to know in my heart that I can truly love another human being with all of my heart. 2014 has proven that for me. 2014 became the year that I realized that I have lived here in Denver now for more years than at any other place that I have called home, 31 years is a long time. And, theres a new future maybe a new home that awaits me; only time will tell. Finally, I have usually posted Donna Summers Last Dance as a tribute to her on New Years Eve and as a way to say good bye to the old year but this year I chose her live cover version of Diana Rosss Reflections to best express my 2014. At 52 years old she owned this song too. I made this video last night and just posted it to YouTube this morning. Enjoy! Today, 12/31 would have been Donnas 66th Birthday. My best wishes go out to her in Heaven as she is also missed very much here on Earth. Bless you Donna. Many of you get tired of seeing her songs posted but I do that not just as a tribute to her underrated talent but also because she was indeed a truly good human being. A woman who loved her family and forged out a successful career at the same time and epitomized obtaining the American Dream. A woman who remained married to the same man for 30 years, a man who was at her side when cancer quickly took her away from us as I know it can from my 2014 experience with Mark and my blessed father 30 years ago. I wish and hope for all of you the very best 2015. One filled with happiness, love, friendship and most importantly good health. May our paths cross again in the future so we can share a hug and reminisce about the glorious past and hope for our future. God Bless You All. With Love ~ Neal Jr. :-) youtu.be/MT9povG-u1M
Posted on: Wed, 31 Dec 2014 13:55:28 +0000
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