Good morning my darling Angel I hope you had a good weekend I missed you a lot.I hope you missed me a little . My son asked me over the weekend why I loved you so much and have longed for you so much and I finally had to tell him everything that I felt. He has always known about his aunt angel and i know i have been very vague about your life with Ki because i did not want to cause you to hurt to much while remembering the past so i have been telling you and posting everyone letters but him and those memories and letters are still going to have to wait a bit i promised EvilMonkey but i will tell you what i told my son Kris over the weekend the day I met My Angel was a very confused day and it was one of my darkest times. I had been on a downward spiral in my life and felt I had no one to love me and I felt like I had nothing to lose so when I got high I decided that I wanted to have the ultimate high and leave on it but GOD decided that it wasnt my time and I was never so happy that he decided that when i met you . I remember when they brought you in you had slit your wrist open and had not woken up yet my uncle was your Dr and and i could here the concern in his voice he was yelling at all the nurses to hurry and get him this and that and he was begging you to please hold on .I had never heard my uncle sound like that before and so i ran down the hall to see who he was talking to because I actually afraid it may be someone in my family when I looked into the room all I saw was this long redish brown hair falling off the bed and this small bloody hand that my uncle had just stitched back up . I went over and placed you hand in mine and it was cold to touch but you tightened your hand weakly and held my hand my uncle looked and me about to scold me for coming in but when he saw that you were not letting go of my hand he said I could stay that you must need me there It was the first time anyone needed me in my life and you were so pretty lying there I could not take my eyes off you when they started giving you blood after a few minutes I could feel the warmth coming back into your body i knew you would be okay and when you opened your eyes and looked at me i heard you whisper your here you promised to hold me till i die i did not understand what that meant but I knew I could not let you go ever. It was later that night that i found out why you held on to me so hard you thought that I was my brother Ki i had no idea that you were his angel that he had been talking about and trying to find for the last 6 years.The way he talked about you I thought you were the same age as we were late teens early 20s but when he saw you and you smiled and ran to him and my dont touch me never emotional brother whispered is it you and picked you up and held you in his arms and gently kissed your forehead I knew that I had lost you forever because he found his angel and the look between the two of you there was no denying that the two of you were destined to be together. i was so angry because you in just a few short hours had started to melt the ice around my heart were sitting beside my brother he was holding your hand now not me but to my surprise you still played around with me and teased me just like before he came it was like it made no difference to you and it wasnt just me you were like that with you and kris hit it off right away playing jokes on me and james what surprised me was that all of us fell for you James Kris and myself all on the same day but for different reasons we all wanted to protect our angel you no longer were just Ki angels you belonged to all of us after that day and you changed us we became real brothers that day for the first time we shared a common goal and that was to make our angel safe and happy .
Posted on: Mon, 18 Nov 2013 15:28:37 +0000