Got some test results back. Caught it just in time. A little longer and arms and legs might have come off, if not death. I was pretty disoriented with pain and confusion the first night, but when they told me they were treating me for sepsis I knew what that meant. My friend Eddie almost lost his wife to it one weekend. She gained 110 pounds in under 6 hours. I knew I had not packed on that much weight, but I recalled them taking my weight, and after not eating or drinking that afternoon, I had still gained about 10 pounds. I told the nurse, as she was going over the blah blah blahs that I had a do no resuscitate wish in my living will. She was asking about organ donations, which I am a complete body donor. When I said this she stopped. She said, Is there anyone I can call? I realized that the last thing I wanted was to bother my wife and son with this stuff. I had to reconcile with myself over the next 12 hours. It gave me a perspective very few see until much later in life. I think I have always lived my life in a way that has allowed me to experience these types of things as early as possible. I slept the sleep of the dead, I didnt dream. Days away now, I still feel that night. I think I might feel that moment for a long time to come. I am weakened and slow moving, eating very little, and still adding a little weight daily. My arm is about the size of a Nurf football now instead of a pigskin. Things are turning around. It makes me think about things in the small hours, before anyone is awake. Its not new. It is what I have been thinking about all along. I am grateful for my wife and son. They are all I have left. They are the only things I have ever had. They are the only ones I have ever needed.
Posted on: Wed, 15 Oct 2014 00:08:13 +0000
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