Grief That word can be taken so lightly and mean so much to others, who maybe even don’t know that they are suffering from it. I lost my mum when I was 18 and my brother when I was 26 and it has made a massive impact on my life and after all this time I need to face up to it. Now this is a little about me and how I have felt and still do feel. It has come to a point that I feel the need to let this all out and this is the only way I know and feel comfortable, those who really know me and that is a few maybe 1 person, as I have no close friends because of my grief I have driven most away or just not communicated with them as its easier just not to. I’m the big silent one in the corner who doesn’t want to speak much has nothing much to say, happy in his own company. It’s not that I’m being rude it’s just that sometimes I have too much noise in my head and can’t listen or even want to talk. Funny thing is you spend that much time thinking it starts to mess with your head, I now suffer from mild anxiety due to me not dealing with my grief and locking my feelings away, I worry about stuff that is most probably never going to happen but it gets in my head and ruins my days, nights and makes me short tempered sometimes. That’s just not me, and not the way I used to be. Just the way I am until I get this sorted out. The worst part is I take my frustrations out on the ones closest to me it’s not meant that way I just blow a valve now and then. And that’s only due to my frustrations in my head and my stubbiness in not wanting to talk or except help. So I guess this is some sort of apology, so sorry to all those who I have been short tempered with not returned your calls texts or emails. I don’t want anybody to feel sorry for me just take it as lesson that if you have grief in your life get help before you are in a head like mine.
Posted on: Fri, 14 Nov 2014 22:39:33 +0000
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