Had yet another trip to the ER. I had another EKG and also was luckily able to get a bloodtest. The blood test was to check possible deficiency and rule out diabetes or anything of this nature due to wed of this week feeling like I was going to faint. my electrolytes pottasium , sodium , calcium ect. all tests came back normal and the EKG was text book heart pattern. for anyone who cares I have been having severe muscle twitches & heart palpitations at night , anxiety attacks , insomnia due to palpitation twitches and anxiety. I have broke down and cried two times now. I am physically mentally and almost financially exhausted and above all very very scared. I know I am a good honest huge hearted person. but this trauma has shown me that despite my good intentions. I have taken for granted many things in life (life in general being one of them) my compassion and empathy when seeing someone with a disability or ill was just emotionally callous. The hatred and distrust I have harbored over the years. Has led me to a confined somewhat empty life. with no spouse to love and no children to cherish. I sincerely apologize to any and all who were subject to this hatred. Music has been my only emotional input and outlet for 15+ years and my studio that I have focused on the last 3or4 years is what I have. I cherish every band , studio session and band member that has stepped foot in Risemusic. For these are the memories that I have to recall during my illness. Never take things for granted and remember to live life. God Bless, Steven Jensen
Posted on: Sat, 01 Feb 2014 06:29:26 +0000
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