Happy rebirthday to me:) Got Baptized today and am so happy to continue my journey w God. Heres my religious story to this point... When I found out I was pregnant w Kameron I had been attending church regularly for about a year @ 12stone church... realized I had a responsibilities now so decided to persue my faith and met w a spiritual guidance counselor at church. He helped me to understand that Baptism isnt a first step into religion but a step a celebration of some accomplishments in your faith and for what is to come. So I decided I wasnt ready. Spent the next year and a half not completely committed but more than I had been. I felt a change after I had Zain and started to practice and pray more. I changed my praying from God help me w this... to God guide me to do your will and help me to understand. Going from a college young student to a married sahm of two under two was a complete flip on my life... never in a million years did I imagine myself where I am... and it scared me. Felt like I lost me and id never live out my 20s or enjoy them. I was pregnant and the first year and a half rhat I turned 21. And lets just acknowledge that two kids in the beginning of a marriage is not easy on a marriage!!! So when i prayed i made sure to admit that i was lost and needed salvation and that He was in control. I cant count the nights that i just said God its up to you. Once I started to acknowledge that He was in control I really felt a change and a sense of calm and control over my life and my decisions. Pks book Homerun Life really helped me in understanding the order that God requires your life to go through to succeed in all aspects of life. I knew I wanted to get Baptized but didnt feel I was ready... it wasnt until the 2nd to last service of the Homerun Life that I went to church alone and the song Oceans by hillsong united came on. The song took me over and I balled, raised my arms and closed my eyes. I felt as if God had his arms around me squeezing me telling me everything was going to be alright. After that day I knew that he was on my side. After all I felt him♥ The last service of Homerun life PK put a prayer on the screen and asked whoever wanted to accept God to say the prayer and come up and sign the home plate base. The beginning of the song I told myself I wasnt going to do it... and what do you know half way through the song one foot went in front of the other and I was walking to the stage thinking what am I waiting for? God just wants my commitment. He knows im not perfect and He created me to be that way... but I cant apend the rest of my religous/life journey thinking Im not ready... You may think to yourself God knows I love him I dont need to be dumping in some water infront of everyone at church... but you do. Its a commitment to follow Him all the days of your life. To put Him first and to know that he is and always will be in control. You cant practice your faith in silence behind closed doors. So today I finally did it. Hands shaking and nervous as anything. But so happy for what is in My Gods future for me♡♥♡♥
Posted on: Sun, 30 Mar 2014 22:23:34 +0000