Having another hard night tonight, they seem to be coming more often. Scooter and I were talking about how much we look forward to appointments where we see Beckham but theres always that hope lingering where we get told it was some sort of mistake and hes fine. I fall more in love with him everyday and I didnt even think that was possible. When I was at that appointment yesterday I asked the sonographer how often shes seen cases like mine, she said its not often but she sees them. I then asked her if theyve always ended the same way from what shes seen and she said unfortunately yes. I have never felt more weak than I do now- physically, mentally, and emotionally. I loved seeing his sweet face yesterday and I cant tell you how much time Ive spent today staring at the ultrasound pictures but then Im reminded that he may be taken from me and I will never be ready to let him go. Ever.
Posted on: Thu, 02 Oct 2014 02:13:07 +0000
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