Having past a comfortable evening, slept well, no bad dreams, I woke this morning thinking, this is nothing more than another transition in my experience with cancer. I’ve been through several. I remember when the first surgery and the first round of chemo didn’t work, and I went in for the results of that PET (May, 2012). The results were so bad, I had to get up and leave the examination room. My mother and Son remained to hear the rest of what Dr. Anthony had to say. He recommended a very new therapy called HIPEC. He told Mom and Jonny that there were only a few hospitals that could do it, and that we should find the right one, pronto. My Son took the lead and found UPMC, Pittsburgh. That scan was actually quite a bit worse and this one, and that process actually cured the cancer that I had at that time (peritoneal). It was unfortunate that the cancer came back on the surface of my lung 6 months later, which isn’t normal for that procedure. That is when I started this particular round of chemo fifteen months ago. I am not sure what all the doctor said about this PET scan, it was very confusing and he was confused as well, since the radiologist compared the current PET with one that was 1.5 years old and not the one I had three months ago. But I am pretty sure that he said the mets on the lung and liver were not showing up, only the rib was involved now. Then he said he wasn’t sure, so he was going to have the scan reread next week. It is hard not to think this is it because it is known, the final stage of colorectal cancer is mets to the bone. But there is a feeling in me, this will be more easily beaten. I feel this for reasons I can’t explain. And if this is true, I see the handiwork of God in this – I see his process. I will not be able to do this every day, but I wish to live each day as if I had no cancer at all. This is the only way I can live life (whatever may happen) to the fullest. Just know, dear friends, I don’t feel like I’ve lost the battle. In fact, It feels a little as if a battle has been won. And I’m not denial.
Posted on: Sat, 26 Jul 2014 10:51:37 +0000
Trending Topics
Recently Viewed Topics
© 2015