Heart breaking much, Hubby didnt turn up to class on Friday. His self-esteem has taken a real bad dive and i mean a bad dive like down down down. He told me he felt really really bad about letting me down that he didnt turn up to class. And hes not sure he will go back to GRIT because he doesnt want to be shame and turn up to class late on Tuesday night, even though Ive made arrangements so that everything is all set up for him. Hes refusing to come to the party. On Friday, I felt like a fool. I set up his bench and I was eagarly waiting for him to turn up to BODY PUMP went downstairs then back up again but a big FAT NOTHING !!!! I was so angry, it got to the point where it was affecting my PUMP workout but decided to say nah EFF YOU. Im not going to let you ruin my awesome night. I made the mistake of telling him that I was so disappointed when he didnt make it to class, (please keep in mind that he works 6 days a week (10.5hrs) each day. Despite that he always gets plenty of sleep etc. So to me its just no excuse) Obviously he took it to heart and it made him feel like shit, that he had failed everyone, felt a bit ratchet which is to be expected, I apologized. But in my heart, i just felt like saying HARDEN THE EFF UP, YOU PUT YOURSELF IN THIS POSITION NOT ME but then again if the tables were turned I would feel the exact same way. I asked him a few questions rating himself from 1 not good-10 freaking awesome, about body image etc.. all of his answers were all rated 5 and below. Breaks my heart. Im trying to give him the pep talk of the century here lol you know. Im trying all I can to support him but I feel like im losing an uphill battle. He has tried his way of losing weight and it hasnt work. Im throwing options out there that he might find worth trying but I feel like Im talking to a brick wall. I just feel like giving up. He gives up too easily as much as I love him to bits, I dont feel like I can help him unless he is willing to help himself. Apart of me is becoming annoyed with his self-pity. I refuse to go back to that dark place. Ive worked too hard to get to where I am at the moment. All I can do i guess is just love him & do the best I can do. #HISLOWSELFESTEEM #MYHEARTBREAKING #WILLREMAINSTRONG
Posted on: Sun, 31 Aug 2014 09:17:46 +0000
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