Hello again FB friends. For all you 80s fans you dont know what you got till its gone. But i did know what i had. One of the most amazing women i have ever known. We didnt always see eye 2 eye. But thats a part of marriage. I would like to thank everyone who attended one of the most beautiful tributes to Ellen Coates Whisman life. Last night was packed. Today the church was packed. Amazing. A true testament as to how many lives my wife touched. she has truly helped make me the man i am today. So many people. I think we had Gratiot closed in all directions there were that many cars. The service was beautiful. After the service at the cemetery i had to witness the burial. I do this at every funeral. But this wasnt just any funeral. This was my wifes funeral. 14 yrs we were married, she knew me better than i do. Alway had my back. And now..............now she is gone. As they were beginning to lower into her final resting place ( kitty corner to my father and step mother fyi) i grabbed the shovel that was in the back of the truck and asked the guy if i could borrow it. He said yes so i picked it up and walked over to her grave side and leaned on the shovel. Alot of things were going through my head at that moment. So many unanswered questions. After they lowered her in i took the shovel and threw in a shovel full of dirt. I dont know why. Maybe to help with the closure, who knows. I then handed the shovel back to the guy and thanked him. i stayed until they replaced all the dirt. But one question kept going through my head. What now? There are so many bridges in front of me. I dont even know where to begin. Im more lost than ever. But i have to stay strong for the kids. They are whats important now. i can crumble at the bottom of this moutian, or i can climb it. Ive chose to climb. But slowly. The next chapter of our lives is still unwritten. I know ellen will be guiding me. But im gonna take a year off from life. make sure the kids are all good, maybe find myself again. Idk. The roller coaster ride is not over yet by along shot. But ill be ok. One day at a time. I know ive said this to many people Lately but, its how we react or respond in times like this that make us who we are. Dont worry when i do finally crash and burn thats when i will bring in the calvary. Meaning i will lean on some of you for help. But for now i just need to figure out the next bridge to cross. Again thank you to all who have been there either on FB, by phone or in person. You all made this just a little easier. Please continue to share the fundraiser. I have a wonderful circle of people around me and its mostly thanks to Ellen. I love you baby. May you rest in peace. You will always be in my heart and soul for ever. You gave me so much and now i must pass that on to others. You are and will be missed dearly. But you will never be forgotten. Thank for letting me rant. B
Posted on: Sun, 12 Oct 2014 05:43:41 +0000
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