Here is what is dawning up on me in light of the recent Boles Fire Catastrophe. Ive been living under catastrophic, or near catastrophic conditions for years! Though my house and all of its contents (all of my history and much of my fathers history) went up in smoke and is reduced to ashes, along with my Ford Escort that had a totally good engine that I was hoping to one day to get back on the road (it was totally destroyed; melted) I cant blame most of my short comings and/or my desperate or near desperate needs on the fire! Rain, sun, snow, destroyed many of my and my fathers things. Ive been in shock for years. The cruel and thoughtless self-serving hell inspired action of vicious people and other thieves (known and unknown) also brought me into this state of shock... So, its kind of hard for me to ask for help, or to even know what to ask for, on account of the BOLES FIRE. I feel kind of unjustified in asking for help for me, as, again, most of my difficulties dont stem from the fire. (And, in truth, I havent even begun to access the damage to property or possessions nor have I come to terms with it.) The loss suffered in this fire, even the loss of my house is nothing compared to the other losses that I have suffered since my father died, but also, before... I am so grateful for all of your GENEROUS outpouring of Love and Support to me personally, and to all of the City of Weed, and those adversely affected by not only the fires of the Boles Fire, but, also by the FIRES OF HELL. (Call the testing of the mettle of the soul, or the trial by fire, what you will.) -_How ever to best word that. Please do keep all of humankind in your prayers for COMFORT and UPLIFT. I am so very, very, very grateful for the GIFT of ART, yesterday, Gods ART, via Gods Handiwork of the GLORIOUS RAINBOW, a double rainbow, in fact. (and, yes, I recognize that there is also Physical Science) - The day prior to the appearing of the rainbow after the downpour of rain the night before, a morning dove stood watching me for the entire time that I packed up a few boxes that survived the fire from my yard and placed them in the back of my truck. After the community meeting at the C.O.S. Theater last night, Chaplin Pastor Andy Grossmans wife, and I chatted for a bit. (Mostly she listened.) And, for the first time since these fires began (the Boles Fire, not the Fires of Hell, for the Fires of Hell have been Raging for a long time--Hell hath no fury as a woman scorned).... I cried. Tears swelled up, and I cried. I ended up sitting next to her during the UPDATE. I didnt know who she was before I sat next to her. Ive met her husband several times, and have spoken to him, and have heard him speak at various events, and am on his e-mail list. In any event, after the meeting, after I shared with her the story of the morning dove, and we shared about the appearance of the GLORIOUS Rainbow (Gods Word, and Promise, Promises that He keeps, and his Word is TRUE, and is LOVE, by Cultural Tradition, even American Cultural History, and Western Civilization History and language and thought--even basic Christian and Bible basic-basic history, literature and my personal childhood basic upbringing and common knowledge.)-- Howe ever to best word that as well--- In any event, after the September 18th, 2014 Boles Fire Community Update meeting, after telling Mrs Grossman about the sweetness of the appearance of the dove the day prior, Mrs Grossman mentioned the title of a song that she knew. Something about the wings of a dove. And, then, she kindly and softly, sang it to me! She sang it to my directly from her heart. (I could tell that she loved that song.) She sang it right then and there. Her singing voice is so very, very sweet and beautiful and kind. And, well, so, what is this post about? Well, perhaps, its about Love. --and support. And, my appreciation for all of your love and support. And, especially, I want to thank Mrs Andy Grossmans wife, publicly, here, for her love, and for her listening ear. And, for her simple kindness. Tears. Please also continue to keep John Hecker and his whole family, and Debi Salvistrin and her husband, and all adversely affected or simply affected or touched by the Boles Fire in Weed, CA in your prayers, if you will.
Posted on: Fri, 19 Sep 2014 14:16:36 +0000