Heres a bit of a news flash...Im feeling a little bit down and a tad bit negative so Im sharing my feelings with the world to relieve some of the stress Ive been feeling over the past couple of weeks. First, I want you all to know that I am not one who usually does this because Im a pretty private person and two, I know most of you dont care to read posts like this - I dont, so Im breaking my own rules right now to boot! Time for my rant to begin... Hello World! Im a mom, a daughter, a sister, a grandma, a friend, a co-worker and believe it or not, IM ONLY HUMAN!!! I dont have the super powers to turn back time and make things better that went wrong, I can only move on from them and hope things will change and become better as time goes on. I cant remember everyones birthday all the time, or on the exact date of their birthday because Im not a walking computer and sometimes these things slip my mind. Not that youre forgotten because its your birthday, youre thought of - trust me, a month or even months before your special day arrives, but life happens all around us and things get pushed aside and sometimes, it may be your birthday that gets filed away for another second, minute, hour, day, week or even a month before I realize, oops - I should have sent a note, a card, made a phone call, but I didnt and now its too late. As a human being, I made a mistake. Cant we just move on? I feel like Ive accomplished something in remembering that it was your special day and I thought about you but didnt tell you I was thinking about you. I sent a gift, a day or two late or even a month later, but Im still thinking about you and loving you regardless of whether or not I remembered your special day. There are days I have a lot on my plate, but because Im a private person, I dont share all of the huge overflowing plate with those around me, I just try to handle it and cope with the amount Ive been given. After all, there are starving individuals out there and I should be grateful for what Ive been given. Dont get me wrong, I am, but sometimes it is a little overwhelming and being SUPER MOM I tell myself I can handle it, just cope with it, get it done, you can do this! Well, Ive coped and Ive got it done, and what do I get for doing it all on my own and accomplishing what I thought was a great feat? Not much, other than a few blows to my heart letting me know Ive failed by forgetting to make a phone call, send a note, or being Mother / Grandmother of the Year! I try and I sometimes I fail. I try and sometimes I win! All I can say, is Im trying to be the best me that I can be. I know that this doesnt measure up in some peoples eyes, but its the best I can do with what Ive been given. Im sorry Im not the perfect mom or grandma, or friend, sister, daughter or perfect whoever you want me to be. Im just me and Im just trying to get by one more day, one more week, one more month, one more season. Thats all I can do so please dont expect any more from me. Just let me be who I am and forgive me for my mistakes. We all make them, so lets move on by trying to be better today than we were yesterday and trying to better tomorrow than we were last week. Thats it...Im trying.
Posted on: Sat, 15 Nov 2014 21:03:30 +0000