Hey Family and friends, I have a story to tell you about how good God is. Most of you know I lost my love of 43 years in April. Been making it day by day, then Oct. 27th I had knee surgery. Well, that combined with the fact that I dont think I mourned for Alan overwhelmed me. I sunk into a depression. I would sit and cry all day and night, had dreams, panic attacks and didnt care about anything or anyone for about a month. My knee did fine it was me allowing Satan to get me. A Sis of mine kept begging me to seek help but I was convinced no one cared. I pleaded and begged God to just let me lay my head on Alans shoulder, feel his hand in mine, have him tell me everything will be ok, but nothing. Then I started begging Alan to tell God what I needed. All day and all night. Depression is real folks and it needs to be taken seriously. Being in Texas away from family made it worse for me, but I didnt realize I was so deep until one day God sent me 4 people to tell me I was important to them. My Aunt Polly called and just kept telling me to come home, my cousin Chel called, kept telling me she loved me, my sweet sis Maryleigh Freeman, she cant live without me, lol, and my awesome niece Lesli Carden Shaddix, that said the final magical words, you dont want us and your kids to feel like you do, do you? That did it something snapped and I knew the plans I had made to end my life had to stop. God sent me Angels that day. I sought help and within a few days the fog in my mind was clearing. You see I wasnt listening to God even tho he was trying to help me. I was still to angry with him for taking Alan. I am better and I owe a debt of love to these people, especially to Maryleigh Who never failed to tell me 2,3 times a day she loved me and that Jesus loves me. My daughter Stacy Carden has been a rock for me, my son Shane Carden and daughter-in-law Amy Carden have been so good to me, and my grandchildren so patient and loving. God is good and never presume you know what a person is thinking or how a smile can help them thru their day.......never take loved ones or friends for granted. Have a wonderful and Happy New Year!!!!😃😃😃😃 faith, love and hope, but the greatest is love!!! God is love!!!!
Posted on: Mon, 29 Dec 2014 01:43:16 +0000
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