Hey Love!! I miss you SO MUCH!!! Eight months…..eight months since I last held you. It seems like so long ago Kwesi. We are all missing you like crazy!! I made it through the holidays! Well……its still Kwanzaa and thats still a little difficult but I am so glad Christmas is over!! November and December have been horrible, babe. We definitely did not have a traditional Christmas. Of course, we didnt put up the tree or anything and we went to Happy China for dinner. That was even hard because we went there on Christmas when grandmother passed away (seven years ago). It got better the longer we were there so Im forever thankful for that!! Im trying to start embracing the many signs showing me that you are still near. Usually just about every sign I see makes me break down in tears. December 10, 2013 we went to the movies to see Frozen….it was your last time going to the movie theater. On December 10th, I rented Frozen, curled up on the sofa right beside where you would sit and watched it. It was hard to watched but I enjoyed the memory of us watching it together at the theater. About a month and a half ago, I was out shopping and ran directly into a piece of wall art that said you are my sunshine. All I could do was stare at it and then walk away as fast as possible. A couple of days before Christmas, I saw a piece of wall art that said love you more. It broke my heart, babe because you said that to us often. Remember you and dad used to have the I love you more contest to see who could add the most mores (I love you more, more, more, more, more)? You guys used to drive me crazy!!! On Christmas, I again decided that I wanted to start embracing more of the signs I see from you so the following day I went to the store and found both pieces of wall art and bought them! Its so hard learning to live a new life without you babe, but we are trying so hard! I know you would want this for all of us. Its hard to figure out what to do!! I have no one depending on me and its weird. You would think that I would find a little joy in it but I havent (not yet at least). But Im trying babe. Ive started taking baby steps and I PROMISE to continue. Oh I forgot to tell you, I met Joshuas mom for lunch not too long ago. It was SOOOO good hanging out with her! Im sure you and Joshua were right there with us :-). Love you to pieces, sweetie pie!! ****We appreciate all of the cards, notes, texts, thoughts and prayers. Thank you for thinking of us and remembering our sweet Kwesi during this holiday season.
Posted on: Mon, 29 Dec 2014 02:38:34 +0000
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