Hi, Im a fan of this page. Sobrang nakakatuwa so I guess Ill give it a go. Heres my story. Hope you can post it. =)) Since sobrang konti lang namin, hindi ko na sasabihin kung anong year at course ko. Basta sa NEU ako nag aaral at CBA ang college ko. haha x) I fell in love with this girl. I mean when I said I FELL I really fell...down...HARD.. I guess you can say that Im a romantic. 18 years old na ko pero Ive only been in a relationship ONCE. It was with this girl na almost 5 years ko na nililigawan. (Actually hndi pa nga niya ko sinasagot but right now parang kami na pero wala po kaming LABEL. No, its not MU, I dnt believe in that. I guess you can say that were currently dating.) I never cheated on her-never ever. I gave her my all. As in todo effort talaga. I gave her flowers, gifts, letters... I even serenaded her at her home. I never let a day pass without telling her how much I love her and how much she means to me. But as I have learned the hard way, no matter how much you try to make things perfect, life always finds a way to screw things up. Things got bad mainly because of another guy. (Naghahawakan sila ng kamay. Holding hands. Excuse niya, FRIENDS lang daw, walang malisya.) Of course Im not stupid, maniniwala ba ko don? haha. Hindi lng un, marami pang iba pero kapag inisa isa ko, baka maging MMK na to. x) lol. In short, we broke up. It was in August 22. That was sad. It hurt like hell. During the time of grieving of course we seek comfort of friends. It was at this time that I became close to an ex-classmate of mine. I dont know why, and I cant really explain it but ever since the first time I saw her, I felt something different. Hindi kami close nung magkaklase kami. Pero weird things started to happen that I guess brought us together. (weird things like we receive txt messages from each other that we didnt send. One in particular was a txt she recieved saying Certain things may change.) ANG WEIRD DIBAA? NAKAKATAKOT NA EWAN PERO TOTOO. hahaha. hindi lang un, madami pa. pero ayoko maging obvious. :p I had a crush on her way back but it was just a petty crush. Ung tipong natutuwa lng ako sa kanya. But as we became close, I found out that had so much in common. We agreed on a lot of things. We like the same shows, the same movies- but most importantly, we had the same principle. We both came from a bad heartbreak. Both of us were left by the people we loved with our souls. Both of us knew how to LOVE but were forsaken by LOVE. So, that brought us close. Napapadalas ung pag uusap namin sa txt, sa chat. She made me smile during one of the darkest times of my life. And soon I realized that she wasnt just making me smile...she wasnt just making me laugh - she was making me HAPPY. I was happy when were together and it seems she felt the same. I made her smile, I made her laugh. And every time I see her smiling, I felt like the most powerful man in the universe. It seems that she was also happy - with me......or so I thought. By the end of October it was official. IM IN LOVE WITH HER. I cant stop thinking about her. I cant sleep, I cant eat. I cant do anything because of her. Shes stuck in my head. Dumating sa point na kinakabahan ako everytime I see a girl with brown hair kasi akala ko siya. Nanginginig ung tuhod ko and hindi ko alam ung gagawin ko pag nakikita ko siyang parating. But heres the problem. I just came from a heartbreak. Nakakatrauma ung nangyari sakin. I dont know if she feels the same way towards me and I dont think I can handle it if she breaks my heart again. So I decided to keep my feelings to myself first. But as time passed, I realized that shes all I wanted. Shes all I needed- that I just couldnt let her go. One night, I couldnt sleep. No matter how hard I fight it, I couldnt sleep because I kept thinking about her. It was 2am in the morning. November 3. So I got up, turned on the lights and wrote a letter. I wrote down all my feelings, all my dreams, all that I wanted to say to her - how much I needed her in my life. We had an event planned a couple of days ahead so I figured I give the letter to her on that occasion to make it more special. The faithful day came and all was set. All was planned, the venue, the time, and even the words I would say when I hand her my heart. But that day, I noticed something different about her. She seemed a bit happier than usual. She wore a bright smile Ive never seen before. I thought probably she was just excited for the event but soon I found out the horrifyingly sad and painful truth. (for me that is. She was happy. hahaha) She fell for someone else. Yes people, she fell for someone NOT ME. And adding insult to injury, I got to meet the guy. He was nothing like me. He was good looking, handsome, rich, cool, athletic..he had a car for petes sake.. hahaha.. Of course I would have fought for her. However, that day I saw her smile like Ive never seen her smile before. He made her laugh, he made her cheeks flash red, he made her scream out of joy with a simple notion. I could never do that. They were talking about stories I was never a part of. She was HAPPY. I can see it. It was then that I realized that the smiles and laughter I brought to her was just empty. It was nothing compared to what this guy could do. Im not rich, Im not good looking, I dont have a car... I CANT MAKE HER HAPPY THE WAY SHE DESERVES TO BE HAPPY. It hurt of course. I wanted to cry in front of them. But I held back my tears and just prayed for that night to end. It did - and so did all my hopes and dreams that fate somehow exists. That destiny somehow affects our lives and ultimately lead us to HAPPINESS. But it doesnt. Happiness is a choice. Life is a choice. Love is a choice. All of those things you read in books, the things you watch in movies that seem oh-so perfect - it doesnt exist. Life isnt a fairy tale. Life is life. We live it based on the choices we make. :) I had to learn that the hard way. For us, life goes on. The girl who left me before this whole story began, she came back to me 2 months later. She said sorry, I forgave her. Now, were trying to work things out. As for HER, she has a boyfriend now. We still keep in touch and shes still my friend. Dont get me wrong, we never flirt with each other. Were smart enough to know that faithfulness is the foundation of every relationship. I love my girl, she loves her boyfriend. But still, I cant stop thinking of what could have happened and what could have been if I gave her that letter. sigh. Oh well. Cest la vie. :)
Posted on: Wed, 10 Sep 2014 15:42:41 +0000