Home sick with a virus I have been fighting off since Friday. Tried to pretend I wasnt getting it but you know when you give in to it...its just easier. A day like this is good for the reflective soul sometimes and lets you feel all that is, without fear or censor. The fever induced heightened emotions of the entry into fall holiday steeped in such rich memories and letting them flow wherever they need to flow. Feeling overwhelming love and missing of my beloved, my sisters and family and students of the past who are having hard times in their lives right now. Hoping that my friends and loved ones who are suffering whether from treatments, hospitalizations or ravages of the heart and soul find peace and healing. A day at home to revel in tremendous memories of Columbus Days years past and far past. Boating, sailing on the Chesapeake, closing up pools for the winter approaching, Halloween decorating, carving pumpkins on the front porch and the delicious smells as we burned candles in them and of homemade apple sauce cooking on the stove. Hiking and the most wonderous memory of them all, going on Walnut Hunts as a child with my Father. A day alone with him most rare and magical and just us, my sisters. The joy of the anticipation, the freedom of running in the forest and woods trying with glee to collect the most walnuts. Picnicking on blankets with thermoses of hot chocolate and ham sandwiches back in the days when you actually had to make a ham to have ham sandwiches. My Mother heated milk on the stove in a huge pan and chipped pieces off a block of dark chocolate and carefully stirred it till it was just right. Rain and a sick day can be conduits for opening the door to the truer soul sometimes...no running about and filling your time with empty pursuits or family driven errands, forcing reflection in the absence of the noise of life and not being afraid to give in to my Irish melancholy, reading my favorite playwright and reveling in the days without the reserves to block the deepness of the feelings and to feel fully the heartbreak in the remembering.
Posted on: Mon, 13 Oct 2014 21:52:22 +0000
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