Honestly, Ive always been a very good person &tried 2 help others! Anybody that really knows me, will tell u this. I never really understood people &I miss making $55/hour ($110/hr past 40 in a week)! Im tired of nightmares &dreams that I can make no sense of! Be it x5 minutes or all night, I never ever sleep well anymore except when by the side of a woman that I really care about! Were all going to die sometime u know &Ive seen more than my share of it! Imagine if u will, that u remembered, EVERYTHING! Good or bad, but the negative is far easier than the good! U know when people lie 2 u but u want 2 believe in them &2 trust them. This is only a very small sample of who I am &the genius that I fight every single day with inside. I was trying 2 help another earlier as I have so many, but I fear theres only so much negative energy u can absorb after awhile. The last x6 months have been beyond disappointing 2 me &I dont want 2 fight 2 get out of bed &2 try 2 give fake smiles anymore. Ive seen my end more than once &its getting 2 be about time, is it not? Save ur prayers my friends &family! This was NEVER going 2 be a battle that I was going 2 win. Ive got a few things 2 finish perhaps but I know my end is near. If not tonight, right now, then soon! After all, whats the damn point anymore?!? Nice guys lose &Im never going 2 be a bad guy, despite my excessive drinking!
Posted on: Sun, 16 Mar 2014 09:11:05 +0000